samantha!

2009-06-07T13:19:00.003+08:00

while away, meeting people...

i come back to the office to see what had

happened to my dearest bear.

courtesy of yonghui....

now you understand where does the creativity

of yonghui comes from.............. hahahahaha

2009-06-06T10:07:00.002+08:00

well... my attempt to stick to my blogging life

has NOT been successful at all.

the new skin didnt lure me enough to make me

a faithful blogger. hahaha.

on a better note, at least i am faithful to the

more important things in life right? (:

i just realised that we are half way through

bible school already.

learnt alot, grew alot. somehow, by going

to bible school, i feel that i am in awe of

Pastors even more. i dont know why, but

it is just this feeling that makes me go

wow... pst is this, pst is that....

its kinda hard to describe sometimes.

but i think it is good. it is always good

to be in awe of the ones you love.

you receive alot more like that somehow.

having the honour to serve on staff lets you

see even more how Pastors are like.

i thank God that i get to know Pastors

and they are constantly always so amazing!

thank you Pastors for all that you have done.

we are going on to the next level now.

it is no longer just doing our own things, building

our own little church. but we are here for real.

we are not that far off from being a mega YOUTH church.

when we are in the few thousands, guess what?

we are all at the prime of our lives.

we are living our church vision out loud!

raise up a generation who would give God their best years...

i know at least i would only be at my mid 20s.

and of course for people like cheryl and jia jia, they are like 18?!

these are our best years, when we are young and vibrant, equip

well in the skills and heart for God's work.

we are the mighty army of God. we can cause a revolution in the world.

take yourself seriously. you REALLY are a world changer.

let's really grow the church and ourselves this season.

we need to be the best of the best. the strongest we can be.

because we are the leaders of the 2000. we are the world changers.

we must prepare ourselves for a time like this.

the future is going to be amazing.

2009-05-25T20:54:00.002+08:00

Red Rain has been a blast!

we are amazing people...

you should have come and seen the whole set up

for the entire concert.

today, the pastoral people were upstairs

talking through the lives of those that the

ops people have helepd to stage a beautiful

concert for these souls to be planted.

you see it is all part of the whole plan.

the ops had laid an amazing foundation

now the pastoral side takes over to

continue building upon this

foundation that the ops had done.

i am so proud to be in Heart of God Church!

we are amazing and powerful people.

the decor team, the fashion team, the dance team, the leaders...

they are all amazing to me.

i love being with them and hanging out with them!

i wouldnt trade them for anything in this world! (:

i live my life in total enjoyment that i get to do

so many things the right way for God.

it is such an accomplishment and joy to be that.

i thank God for my life - totally.

bible school tomorrow is going to be fun - i guess!

hahah. we are learning about deliverance tomorrow....

so oh well... quite nervous about it, but i guess it would

be good to learn how to do that!

there is always times we all grow to learn something new.

so, i will share with you all more when tomorrow ends!

i had a good dinner at home, missed drinking soup....!

i so love home-cooked food and those long hours of boiling

kinda soup. it is so nice and delicious! my maid is good!

haha. she is a christian too by the way!

alrights, going to add people on facebook, eat fruits now!

2009-05-20T14:42:00.002+08:00

just came to church after bible school!

it was good! Pst Kong was preaching today...

he spent a total of 1.5hrs on 1 VERSE!

WAHHHH AAAHHHHHH!!!!!! (:

so in total the entire bible school today

we did 8 verses in total....

how amazing is that right?

it has been good, i miss spending time

with God these few days.

sometimes we run and we do things,

organise things, plan things.

but we fail to realise that the Boss

behind all of these is the reason why we

do all of them.

to me, this struck me yesterday, so i

had a good talk with Him in the morning

and i love those intimate times.

the amazing thing about God is that more

than a Saviour, He is also our friend.

we get to hang out with God.

how cool is that right?

other than that, i am totally

loving my life! so many things to do

these few months after exams ended and

bible school was on the roll. events after

events to get people saved!

we are so close to our 1000! (:

2 more weeks to grow by 100.

it would be good!

i know we would get there.

let's keep growing and building

our zones strong!

have faith for 100 more to be planted!

2009-05-18T11:51:00.003+08:00

it is a rainy monday...

i have been totally flat sick for the 2 days!

how miserable can that be...

nevertheless, i am blogging because i realised

how dead my blog is! hahaha.

so it is alive and kicking now with a new skin

all thanks to Fedora who managed to rescue

it with her web-bing abilities! (:

anyway, i am going to see the doc really soon

to hopefully find out why am i turning out like

this!

i want to go bible school tomorrow because

Pastor Kong is coming to preach! so excited!

bible school has been great!

we just had like mock CG last week -

and in total i had a total of 13 CGs!

up there man! can you imagine that??

but it was good, i felt that we really did

a good HOGC CG well! (:

and of course we did learn how to run

better CGs and we would improve our own.

recently, i have been feeling closer to God.

it is like you can hear Him clearer than before

and like you can ask Him things and He would

talk back to you.

i guess, it is such a great feeling to be close

to God in a friend way more than just a Lord way.

we all can know God at a Saviour level...

then at a fearful Lord level...

which is all good and essential...

but i feel a closer level would be to know Him like

a friend. like Adam and Eve...

they walk with God in the garden! how cool is that!

i want to walk with God in a garden too! haha.

not garden of eden nor botanic garden can already!

hahaha. some nice place to know God more and be

closer to Him even more!

service last weekend was PHENOMENA! (:

i rather burn than submit.

we all would always keep this in our hearts now

because it is a time for our convictions to stand

mind blowing... solidfy our convictions.

they would turn our to be our values in life

and in turn determine who we are

and who we are going to be.

lately, i have just been feeling that it is time

to let my parents know abit more about my

committments in church. i am alittle afraid

but i decided to let my dad know about

bible school.

i wrote it in a card and of course before that

thank him for all the things he bought for me

when he went aussie and korea for his trips.

it was really sweet of him to do that! (:

i think he understood after all he is a christian

so i am quite happy about it. hahaha.

it would be good.

one day, you would see my parents in church

with me for sure.

our families matter. we must care and love them.

so gald to revive my blog and share my thoughts here!

till then! see you soon world! (:

2009-04-04T23:19:00.002+08:00

well, at least for now, i am highly sleeply! hahaha.

but still, i am going to try to finish my essay!

i just realised that 1 of my prof decided to have another essay.

i think he is bored or something, so he needs our writing to

relax or just do something in life!

i invited my mother for easter already!! and i think she might come!

please pray that she and my brother would come.... (:

i would be really happy. haha. i am quite excited because now,

slowly, i can see her getting saved. in the past, it was abit hard,

but now i feel more faith in getting her saved. so it is a good sign.

as i am blogging, my brother and his friend are sitting beside me

watching soccer.... oh well... boys will always be boys... hehe.

oh and if anyone is interested, wendy neo currently holds

the longest conversation that my brother talks to my friend!

WELL DONE WENDY! hahahaha. oh crap!

and yes, as promised, bible school has been phenomena.

i am enjoying it although it is still quite hard to wake up

so early! i understand the army life.... i mean just the waking up

part must be really hard already! Pst Derek has been teaching

about the Holy Spirit which is really cool because sometimes

we just know that the HS exist and that is about it, but it is

so much more!

i was really blown away when Pst Derek shared about how

when Jesus was around, it was the HS that guided him because

Jesus was 100% man, he was as normal as anyone of us

but the difference was that he was totally guided by the HS!

so he knew what to do, how to do etc...

it was by the power of the HS that it happened. even when

Jesus was up in heaven again, he still worked totally with the HS

so dont underestimate the HS sometimes...

He is part of the trinity. and the best thing, He is inside of us.

so the exact same thing that Jesus had, we also do!

no wonder the bible says we can do all things. totally cool! (:

lastly, read however you want it to mean...

it is abstract writing! MUHAHAHAHAHA.

fishes swim around in the water

sometimes it is milky, sometimes clear

the conditions around is determined not by the

environment, but rather the fishes themselves

the amount of oxygen the take in, CO2 they

breathe out.

the choice lies with themselves...

it is essential, but the amount is left to be

determined...

it is clearer than you think it is

complicated? maybe not.

ok, that's all... cant be bothered to think about

the ending or how to finish it nicely! hehe.

i am going to do my essay now!

LOVING MY LIFE! (:

2009-03-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

ohhh.... how i love my blog! hahaha.

ok seriously, just a very quick and short update!

i have just started bible school now!

for the opening we had Pst Phil Pringle to open and

C3 to lead us in praise and worship. so it was really

really good! (: we had a super long day. reached

CHC at 8am and we went home at like 9pm!

but other than that, everything else was good!

we had this orientation and our group won the

TOP! so we would go down in history....

i so totally think that it was because the anointing

was with us! hahahhahaha.

i am going to go do my homework soon which is due

on weds! if you see this, pray for me to do well! (:

till then, will post pictures and videos of SOT soon!

2009-03-17T03:28:00.002+08:00

we have all grown up.

ok, i have officially reached the most significant age in life...

or so to speak by the law at least. hahaha.

i guess, it has been an awesome journey so far!

we all have to grow up and it is quite scary

because suddenly you realised that life is moving faster

than you think it is

decisions have to be made that no longer have consequences

on you for just a moment or a few months

but it stays with you for years, affecting more people

than you think it does.

the decisions you made now are going to carry on with you

for the rest of your life no matter you like it or not

but i guess the great thing is that we have God so we can

have faith that our decisions are good ones because we can seek

Him. (:

its an honour to be serving God as we step into 'adult'hood.

it has been 6 years that i have been serving God.

7 years since i stepped into Heart of God church.

what a privilege it is! I guess it is kinda hard to describe it

but it is really nice and sweet so far. haha.

i am enjoying it more now, we made our fare share of mistakes

had our fair share of discipleship even up to today

but we all have a calling in God that we must go towards

there is no other way out for us. because THIS is the way

that we have decided since we started on this fervent race.

it is a decision that we have made and we will stick to it.

i kinda am not used to being so old.... hahaha.

i mean look at cheryl and jia jia! ARGH! hahahaha.

but i love both of them very much. (: i really do.

its kinda like a soft spot you know, seeing them and knowing

how much they can go into because we were once like them.

in fact, i was worse than them. so it just makes my heart

skip even more. haha. i dont know how to describe it!

it just has been having multitude of intangible feelings

that i have on the inside of me. i could go on rumbling!!

so anyway, these are some of my thoughts.

let's keep running and building this church we all love.

let's just grow us big. (: with love.

change our world with 15 revolution.

show someone you care. show someone you love.

that way, we can grow. by love. by basics.

i'm not swoon over by money

nor by power; nor by might

but the greatest of these is love

conquering the impossible quest

greater than it seems

bigger than it is felt

harder to give

longing for one

its complicated; yet simple

this feeling that we all need

let it out, let it out

not trapped within oneself

Letting it travel

On the lights till; a cuppa of

Venti latte finishes

Everyone wants it

goodnight beautiful world. (:

2009-02-25T04:01:00.002+08:00

hello world!

i am going to sleep really soon because its 4am.

hahaha. today has been good. PA was good.

i am missing rinnah already. she is so so cute. (:

i have made more new friends in school this semster

i think they are quite nice people too.

different from me, but quite nice. so i am quite happy!

hahaha. and i am going to have many project meetings

with them. so it better be good.

and i have essays to write soon too. WAH!

happy doing to myself.

let's all love writing.

let's love our lives.

goodnight peeps!

2009-02-10T23:04:00.002+08:00

i feel like a piece of pork being flapped down onto the chopping board

'PLARGH' right onto the wooden, round chopping board

a board that has been used for 5 years, slightly cracked at the sides

and if there is a little bigger crack, it would be near the center

where the silver hook is being shoved in by the manufactures.

why am i talking about this? because to put it into simple words

or rather word: nua.

that is called the power of language.

i am highly amused by myself.... hehehehe.

ok, it is like 11plus only and i feel it is like 3am already

i think the morning prayer meeting has set my biological clock

correctly, but yet it is so hard to keep to it.

i just received lots of work from my prof. WAHHHHH!!!!

and meeting with ivan was good today! (:

it was a good meeting, we nailed down certain things

and we are all ready to win people and get people planted again.

i guess it all runs in a circle.... these things never stop.

you either love it or hate it.

i love it much much.

let's not be discouraged and let's work and grow our zone.

it is possible. smile and do the work.

this thurs i am meeting the entire B4 CEG to share with them

about my revelation. it would be good! ahaha. because it is

my revelation. (: so it would be good. really excited about it.

if you really want to know, it is about a well.

THE WELL.

ok, now i am going to tell all of you how weiling, chew, fedora

pang sei me ALL ALONE in the office and went to eat macs!!!

but thank God, for people like CHERYL CHAN HUIMIN. (:

she has made my night/going to be day alot alot nicer.

SO SAD..... they just pang sei me! hahahahahaha.

they are so going to kill me when they see this.

but it is ok, they all know that i love them.

so they can take it. hahaha.

jacky is going to come back at 12plus with this famous

and super nice hougang duck rice.

and because cheryl didnt pang sei me, i am going to share with her

my food! and the rest dont get to eat it! hahahahaha.

i shall stop it.... its just that, i am feeling alittle high now.

till now, i am going to do my integration lists and pre-ya!

see you all soon.

2009-02-03T02:48:00.003+08:00

5 reasons why I am awake at a time like 3am....

1) joanne is at my house

2) i am supposed to prepare for my class tmrw

3) i just want to play with my mac

4) i DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL

5) i am going to attempt to find my research for schoolwork

as you can see, the studying part is really not going anywhere

but i had a productive time at TCC in town with joanne just now

it was good! i marked and checked through all the bible research!

it was fun but tiring... hahaha. edited some rosters too.

i concluded that today, i could have gotten into many car accidents

i was sleeply due to a stupid runny nose and so i keep making wrong

turns and i was cutting so many lanes..... oh man!

BUT, thank God, i am still in 1 piece and the car is also in 1 piece!

i have to wake up early tomorrow to go for my 9.30am class!!!!!

school is starting to pick up soon.

my first essay is coming right up and so tomorrow or sometime soon

i will flop myself in school and find the books/films that are only

seen in the school library. and of course, this week, i am going

to meet fedora, because shakespeare.com is opening...

tomorrow there is a LOOOONNNNGGGG pastoral meeting

with charleston! i am looking forward to it very much!

excited to see what we can do in the zone and how we can

start moving things much more. it would be fun!

GROW THE ZONE BIG BIG! muhahahaha.

ok, i dont know what else to say.

my mind is all over the place now.

have a great day tomorrow my friends.

see you on MSN in lectures. haha.

if you want to hear my prof speak, feel free

to skype me too! i can let you hear them talk!

till then, ta ta! (:

2009-01-28T04:34:00.002+08:00

it has been a 'chiong-ing' time this break

in fact, i think i 'chiong' alittle too much that i feel more

tired then rested.... hahaha. oh well....

but it had been a great holiday.

we went to KL with some of the staff & leaders

and we really did and ate alot!

then there was our zone reunion dinner which i had to leave

really early cause i have my family one.

i promise that next year, i would make sure we have it earlier!!

because i so wanted to be there!!!!

and of course, if you know us, during the night of the CNY days

we chiong man! we went KTV, we ate, we watch movies, we played LAN

it is quite amazing to see how we are used to running all the time.

so in bid of all that, tomorrow morning i am going to catch up

on my own life and pump myself up with HIM. (:

it would be a sweet time together, i feel it already.

and if i can wake up in time, go swim abit and then go to school.

i hope my harvest is good this year. haha.

time really flies pass quickly. in another 1 month 14 days, it would

be my 21st birthday. i am quite excited yet nervous about it.

probably will blog more about it when it is nearer and i can get

some thoughts into my mind. actually, i wanted to blog another

poem, but my brain is getting tired now. hahaha.

my mum and all are playing majhong in front of me

while i am blogging. they are equally chiong!

oh!! and i found out i have this super cute relative. (:

she is 19 months old and super active. but she is still cute.

ok, im going to KO now if not i would not appear in school!

hahahaha. hope you guys had a great CNY too!

this is such a messy post..... oh well.... (:

2009-01-20T13:04:00.003+08:00

i am feeling very literature-ess today.... (:

shakespeare is in my head now.

fedora, is officially my shakespeare consultant.

lovingly dedicated:

to all who are going through a tough patch

this thing moves you on, throws you around

pushing you away somewhere...

you never know where it flings you to,

getting lost in the unknown area...

it rushes in, it rushes out

the heart, the brain, the body

no longer 3 separate items, but,

flowing as one with uncertainty

but all these will pull towards -

1 end. 1 tunnel. 1 light.

strong, bold, hopeful -

neverending, everlasting.

thundering through...

ploughing through...

gracefully touching the toes

like a little child does

the waves washes up the shore

the peace comes

the mind clears up

the the dark sky disappears

the child whizzes pass again

all is good - one says

beneath the tulu

lies the scars of war

yet, all is still good.

PHILIPPIANS 1: 19 - 21

and now, on another note,

wei ling and i have concluded that

B zone is special...

it is really amazing you know

how our zone is, how the leaders are like

we are really special.

i never want to trade it for any other zone

let's really grow our zone BIG this year! (:

2009-01-19T01:57:00.003+08:00

it has almost been a month since i updated my beloved blog....

so many things have happen, and the year of 2008 has since

passed already. it is quite amazing huh...

truly, 2008 & 2009 is like 1 year to us. haha. but i love it.

ok, but what i seriously like about 2009

is that i just bought a new study bible!

it is the coolest thing man.... now, it is kept in my cupboard

away from the eyes of my mum, to lazy to answer all her

endless questions.

but to me, it is exciting and like WOAH. (:

plus the fact that techman was having a discount,

it was the best time to buy a new bible to start of

reading the OT bible reading plan. hahaha.

as i begin to grow older (yes, im going to be 21 soon)

i realised that many things will be thrown at you

decisions that you never had to make, things that

you never seem to care about (or even detest)

all come towards you... it is like a rush and pumping

feeling that throws you off guard and for a moment, one

gets quite lost as to what to do and what to think.

but i guess that is all part of growing up.

the amazing thing is that we have our Pastors and leaders

to guide us and to help us...

but we would all come to a point, like Pastor How preached

that we need to have our own convictions, own revelation

and own calling about our ministry and what we do.

i understood what it means for me and for me to get my calling

i think i hit upon something really powerful over the past 1 month.

it was not a rush of emotions or feeling or whateverso.

it was a serious thought, a spiritual sightseeing etc...

suddenly, i felt i understood more why i am doing what i am doing.

i felt more serious about the things that i do because my perception

changed and the word 'generations' meant so differently to me now.

i think i have reached my own revelation of what it meant to me.

it is not a vision that Pst Lia and Pst How carries, it is a vision

and revelation that speaks into my life.

i think i am moving slowly into that.... but before the calling gets

into you, i guess God would always wanna do a work in your life

and make you all ready for the calling that He has called you for. (:

so smile, know that God is good.

i only know that this season, i want to do 2 things

1) study and do well in school

2) grow the zone BIG!

2008-12-16T02:43:00.002+08:00

i am blogging because i want to keep my blog alive and i want to rant!

joanne is staying over at my house today.

we went to HK cafe to eat and we drove there and back.

i am determine to practise my driving and parking abit more

so i can drive Pastors around confidently soon!!!!

and of course, attempt to memorise roads.

i am so so bad at it, that i can even get lost when going home....

oh mannn... but thank God for joanne and wendy.

they are like my street directory. hahahaha.

anyway, last weekend dance was good!

i felt the whole team pulled together, gave our best together.

it was sweet. it was much better then the practices and i am

SO SO PROUD of ALL of them! everyone of them!

i am loving dance even more these days.

it felt good to dance again after like stopping for 4 years??!!

the newer people were like "sam! i didnt know you could dance"

hehehe. and i laughed to myself.... and all the other people who knew

were saying "sam! it felt like you were doing cheerleading again!"

ok, i know.... those days were over. but it was fun, i dont mind doing

it again one day... but i am afraid i will spoil the lights or something

hahahaha.

but i was excited because more then doing so well, God spoke to me.

it is kinda long and hard to explain here so i will give you a summarise version.

basically, some of the people told me that ruben and jazreel really danced very

well! (which i strongly agree!!!) but more then that, it was powerful because

we not only showed the other side of God to people, we showed them

what young people could do here! do you know that both of them are 15?!

i mean, they were soo good, so on fire and they can do so much for God.

i was really impacted by that. because i know these is what generations

is all about... and now charmaine from CCH is coming to dance too...

thats another generations. i tell you, it was sweet. so sweet.

i dont know if you can get the excitement that i get, but it gets me

so much that i cant explain it. (:

and of course, my beloved zone!

this is my zone. i love my zone.

i eat, breathe, sleep my zone.

expand and enlarge! i need to take more ownership of my zone.

always keeping clear of my character and walking to revelation

to grow the zone and pastor the zone. technically, i am just leading B4 CEG,

but it is ok, this is MY zone because i will take ownership of it.

everyone is important in the zone as long as you see it as your zone.

in the same way, we protect and love our own things, if we have the

responsibility of that for our zone, we would do the same way and grow.

now is the time to grow. it is not any other time. but now.

grow grow grow!

keep focus, dont be distracted and GROW! (:

2008-12-13T10:27:00.002+08:00

woo hoo! i am finally blogging in a bid to rescue my blog alittle. (:

it has been a crazy 2 months i tell you.

after exams, things just speed up so fast!

it was good, there was AMT, there was big days after big days.

things to do, trainings to start, integrations to get planted, regulars to be built,

leaders to train up etc etc... and the list goes on.

i felt after exams, God was really stretching me further. just had more things

to settle, more things to do. but I LOVE IT.

i guess my hols are never slack! in fact, it is prob more busy then it is

when i am in school.... hahaha. that doesnt speak alot does it....?

oh well.... who cares! now is not the time to bring in school.

it is going to be good, 1400 is so near to us now.

its eating, breathing and living 1400.

how much closer can you get right?

i must keep my character in all areas.

i remind myself, keep your character, hold on to it.

the truth will set you free.

it would be good.

i have a powerful revelation from God for my 21st year.

it was a sweet committment i had with God,

and now i have a direction.

it is always amazing to see how God plans out everything

in your life. and the answers that you have been searching for

comes to you at the right time. its kinda personal to say it here

so oh well, sometimes, things must be kept from public viewership!

hahaha. but thats not the point really.... God has been good to me.

AMT planning was really fun! we didnt sleep for like 2 nights.

it was madness, it felt like VBS all over again!

but this time, much better! hahahah.

i will never forget what Pst How told us the first time.

we planned and worked. and graduation is on sun.

dont ask me who is graduating... cause we dont know ourselves yet!

but it is not easy to graduate, so if you are going too, well done!

be proud of yourself. (:

ok, i think it should be quite long to explain my absence from blogging.

i will try harder to be more faithful to my blog.

till then, 1400!

2008-11-19T15:35:00.004+08:00

i have been studying so much for the past few days

that all that is in my head are all school things......

oh well, it would be over by next week! (:

so i just need to go on a little more & longer

after that it would be over! hahaha.

i am going to leave soon for my 2nd paper

in school at 5pm. it is so weird to have an exam

that is so late, but i guess it is quite good, cause

i will be very awake in my mind!

it is raining now and raining so heavily that i know

that the place would be so so cold again. it will

remind me of london's beautiful weather.... AHHH

i am in need of rambling because of all the words

that have been stuck in my brain that i have hardly

talked to anyone these few days and i really want to talk

to ask people how are they, to hear them share, to hear them

scream. anything! if you are looking for someone to listen

to you, please call me, i would listen to you talk and share

i would be really happy to do that.

ok, i am going back to study for awhile more before

i need to bathe and leave house for my paper!

see you all.

if you are having reviews or exams CHEER UP!

because you are not alone. there is samantha who will

mug with you. hahaha.

2008-11-10T23:13:00.001+08:00

God puts us through different things for different reasons

each one of us are called to do different things, with different strength

sometimes, we need to look at ourselves and just move forward.

when you feel you are lagging behind, run harder.

when you feel tired, look up and He will give you strength.

it is the scars that cause Thomas to believe in Jesus Christ.

it is the scars that saves the disbelief that there is a God.

run faster with more focus.

like an olympic runner.

fast with focus.

i am running, running, running.

2008-10-30T10:00:00.001+08:00

we are going back to singapore tomorrow!

it is London 2am now. i will miss London.

i had alot of fun.

see you guys soon! (:

2008-10-21T04:15:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!!!

i am in london right now sitting at our hotel lobby doing things.

it is like 9.15pm on Monday, but in singapore is like 4.15am!

so i am dying like at 9.15pm..... this blog post is not

going to make much sense, because we are all sleeply!

HAHAHAHA.

so i will blog more soon. (:

missing you guys!

this weekend, let's go for 45 as a CEG ok?

TU LU.

2008-10-15T15:47:00.002+08:00

i am EMO-ing. EMO-ing till i'm dead! hahahaha.

ok, that doesnt make sense? i am just so stuck in school

that i feel so sad! apparently i have still another 2 hour of

class to go. im dying in my 1st hour already.

anybody ----- HELP ME? hhahahas.

this blog is just so nonsense man. i am in much needed rambling

but i cant call anyone, so my best way is to vent it into my blog.

london is coming in a few days. so excited to travel with Pastors.

i hope i get to be a good help to them. (:

oh due to chew theng's blog i found this super fun thing that i had alot

of fun playing with yesterday in lecture with lisa.

like half the lecture disappeared after the break! but we decided to stay

just a little bit more, a little bit further.... and we entertained ourselves.

OH MY.... and my test was good. i did not bad.

I AM AN ABOVE AVERAGE STUDENT! *check out the no of As in it*

you know, i hope last week's sermon ignited many people to read their

bible more and love it, treasure it even more.

sometimes, we take things for granted...

Pastors' powerful sermons, the church, the love, the bible

but we fail to realised how in the past, it was just so hard to get

the word of God, to listen to a good Pastor.

we have the BEST around here. the BEST preacher, BEST ENVIRONMENT

so we must learn to do it even more.

not because of it, but it is 1 factor that we can know that we must be

fruitful and growing christians. not a slacker christian.

we have so much hope in our lives.

GROW & HAVE HOPE

2008-10-10T12:38:00.001+08:00

i am sitting in the ops room trying to settle some of the photog things

and beside me in the other room is chew theng's team have their

worship session. it's good to see them on fire and coming so early to spend

time in the presence of God. so proud of them (:

but i want more... i want to see more people coming, more people sitting

in that circle in that room.

im so not in the mood to blog right now.

but i am trying to keep my bog alive which is apparently

quite a hard thing to do! OH MAN.

till then, maybe i would have more inspiration to blog later.

hahaha.

have a good day everyone.

2008-10-01T21:57:00.003+08:00

ivan's out and then in again.

it was so good to have him back home.

so good to see him, sit in his meetings, listen to him.

i totally enjoyed myself just listening to him.

i wished he was out longer, so many things to tell him.

so many things to talk to him about.

but nevertheless, it is good to see him. haha.

just as i am sure how he is happy to see us. (:

i guess while in army, it is really who you are.

spirits make man.

there is no leader, not friends to be beside you.

there is only just you and God.

it is so simple yet because we are always living a life

so surrounded by love and people, we tend

to forget how and what does it feel like to be just alone.

sometimes, i think it is good to be alone.

just you and you alone. seeing how you deal and how you

grow through God. dump all the programs all the love and guidance

from our leaders, can you survive? would you be a strong christian still...

that's a very interesting thought I have.

maybe because i am about to start my essay on breaking the expectations

and conventions of love, marriage, reality and memory.

so 'chim' right? apparently, my essay is going to be like that.

i looked at it for 2 hours last night and came up with 109 words worth.

hahaha. so tonight, i hope i have more inspiration or whateverso

to do this emotional essay. oh man... so crap.

but really, spirits make man really strike a chord in my heart.

i need to grow to have a stronger spirit.

being more in His presence, loving His word more.

to the people, there must be a spiritual imprint.

got to keep going, keep loving, keep growing.

a spirit for 100. (:

2008-09-22T00:26:00.002+08:00

TODAY SERVICE WAS THE OWNAGE SERVICE. (:

pastor lia was so so powerful can.

it was a total different altar call, different flow of God

but EQUALLY powerful.

i am so blessed to have 2 fantastic pastors.

pastor how just came back from KL and some of us (actually alot)

there were so many stories we heard and i cant wait to hear them!

i am so excited for our pastors. they truly are THE BEST

in the whole world.

we must remain a humble generation.

humility to the core of us.

servant hearted with servantitude.

that is make qualifies us to do great things for God.

it is not the amazing abilities and talents

but it is your spirit.

SPIRIT MAKES MAN.

a strong spirit man would define the title.

would define who you are and what you would do.

not the title defining you.

i had a good talk with charleston today too.

it was short but powerful.

leaders must love the hard work.

leaders must love doing the ground work and building

all the time.

leaders must be able to take nonsense.

we need to build a strong zone.

a zone that is in the 140, but strong.

a zone that we can relied upon.

a zone that has strength.

a zone that is like an army.

a zone that is radical.

I WANT A STRONG ZONE.

MY ZONE IS GOING TO BE STRONG.

MY ZONE IS GOING TO BE BIG.

quality & quantity

2008-09-18T11:00:00.002+08:00

ok, let's start of the day right by replying tags!

Lisa: yes, the effect stays with you for at least a few hours... hahah

Nadine: yes yes! we must average 100 soon as a zone! (:

Crabby Patty: ermmmm... if you insist that, ok you are missed!

weijie: yes friend, its hard to keep it revived all the time.... oh man

cassandra: study hard and do well!!!

su shian: yeah man! GROWTH IS EASY. haha.

next week is term break = NO SCHOOL!

how cool is that right? (:

anybody want to ask me out? hahahaha.

ok seriously, this term break is not really for us to rest,

but for us (esp me) who needs to catch up with schoolwork.

so i will study harder during this week i hope *crosses fingers*

if you are looking for a study partner, can drop me an sms.

i would be really happy to study with you.

and we can always find a nice place in some nice part of s'pore

and mug our brains away.... really.....

yesterday, i had a cool meeting with the fashion ministry IC

we had alot of fun talking and going through things.

everyone is excited. (: it is going to be different now.

the ICs are going to lead better, we would have many different teams

that can be activated as always.

so think the ministry like it is a professional department.

when you enter, it is first class make up and customer service

sweet isnt it?

have you ever watch TV that has the backstage for models?

those people that seemingly so many and so busy running around?

let me tell you, there are so clear and so precise in their job

it is quite amazing you know...

its like 'bamp' and the whole team works and 'ta-da'

the model is all looking good in 5 mins.

i mean that is what we are going to be like...

so we had a good sharing and all about how we can go there

its going to be good. so join the ministry if you can. hahaha.

then this sunday, it is going to meet the decor IC.

woah. its going to be a power packed meeting, so its going to be

GREAT as well. i am excited. (: haha.

on another note, the zone is growing quite fast now.

i am so excited. i feel my heart expanding for the zone even more.

i stop to think about my zone, should i delegate this thing out, or not.

being more selective, more anxious about things of my CG, my zone.

i hold on to my revelation that there would not be a shortage of leaders.

in fact, it has gone even more and into my spirit....

not only abundance, but abundance at many levels. (:

ZLs, ZMs, SCGLs, CGLs, TLs, PTLs......

beautiful day it is.

i so love my life even with school. haha.

london is coming in 1 month's time. (:

i am very excited about it because i can serve Pastors even more.

my driving test is in 2 months.

pray for me to pass. (:

love life.

you realised that when you start to love your life even more

things that you do is enjoyable.

have a good day. (:

2008-09-09T15:58:00.003+08:00

here's to replying tags to attempt to make my post look longer...

chelsea: yes yes, we can always talk in church! (:

vanhan: hahaha. i can't remember what was our last convo. but anyway, great to read from you!

eric: yes, just little bit more in army. dont worry.

kenneth: all the best for your exams! we have been praying for you.

cassandra: you are responsible. you have an awesome future in God.

weijie: WHATEVER friend.... hahahahas. its quite revived now right????!!!!!

fe: it's ok, i still love my tagboard. hahahs.

yx: keep going strong in God ok? you have a great destiny in Him.

i seem to always blog in class during this particular lecture...

hmmmm... i wonder why. hahaha.

i dont know what to blog about. sometimes, you have

a thousand and one things to blog, but once the moment is gone,

its gone. no motivation to blog. haha.

monday, we went to watch WALLE. its quite cute. really.

WALLLL.....EEEEEE...... (:

actually i think it is trying to tell us to save our earth or something.

its like so SAVE THE EARTH or THE EARTH WILL BE DEAD.

apparently, Lisa claims that it is about love. that it goes beyond appearances.

i guess also can la huh... robots are in love. she thinks too much already.

i think it is our lecturer that is making her like that. quite sure.

anyway, this weekend, BRING ALOT OF FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it is going to be a powerful services with Her Excellency Zanele Makina and Pastor How.

it is one of the best time to bring friends we will keep growing.

B zone, let's go for an all time high this weekend before Ivan goes into the army.

it would be the best gift ever for him. let's go for at least above 100. win E zone. haha.

we can do it. faith & success. (:

on another note, i will miss ivan so much.

talking to him, sharing with him, learning for him EVERYTHING!

AHHHH.... but our zone will still continue to grow.

it will with people like Jian Ming, Jeremy Lim, Wei Ling, Fedora, Nadine.

we are an amazing team. let's grow our CGs, zone, church.

1400.

140.

2008-08-29T21:06:00.003+08:00

THIS IS WHAT OUR ZONE IS GOING TO BE

(excerpts from ivan's blog...)

1) the marines want to be the worse enemies anyone

could go to war with - we're like that

2) the marine have only 2 objectives:

win the mission and take care of the people

around you - zero-ed in simplicity

3) the marines never believe in quitting - the tenacity and ethos

4) the marines are a family - fighting alongside people similar to myself

5) the marines have goal before self - humility

i took it from his blog. we need to make our goals plain on tablets

which i figured blog should be fine too. haha.

so thats its the above 5 points are from ivan's blog.

its really cool you know,

we are lean mean fighting machines that all have a place.

we fly in formation, in trust, in faith.

last few thoughts....

machines are steel; locked in by screws

we are locked in by romance, spice, oil.

machines are programmed for heights

we are programmed for flights - further the better.

machines listen to commands

we listen to heartbeats.

machines evoked out of the brain

we evoked out of the Creator.

machines respond to machines

we respond to God.

we ain't machines... we are much more magnificent than we think we are.

2008-08-29T00:37:00.003+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates everybody!

it has been quite a tiring week.

school has been quite irritating with presentations

but all in all, it is good i guess.

grows you as a person, trains your patience etc etc.

oh well... TOMORROW THERE IS NO SCHOOL!

how i love my fridays now adays...

i treasure it so much you know.

it is such sweetness in them. hahaha.

5 THINGS that keeps me motivated to go on:

1) Revelations

i come to realise that while, there are days you feel tired,

what would keep you going is when you continually seek God

for that word of the season. That word that would keep you rooted

and courageous to go on.

recently, God just bring up the verse in Ezekiel to me again

it draw me closer to God and it just put my thoughts back

into perspective once more. its like a focussing on the camera lens.

2) Love

put it this way, there is so much love bubbling around in church.

you cannot walk away from it just like that.

i mean, how can right?

you would be a horrible, ungrateful, disgusting person that way man.

love grounds you to the floor. so solid, so strong. its like superglue.

3) Friends

like it or not, they are important.

when you are down, do you have a friend to talk too? to share things

with? these are the people who would never look down on you, but

begin to spur you on to greater heights. lend you a shoulder to cry on,

hand in hand building this church.

its a beautiful picture... have good friends everyone. (:

if you dont, find me, i can be your good friend. hahas.

4) Committment

you know there is committment in everything that you do. The moment

that you decide to commit to something, you stick to the end of it.

no matter how hard, how tough, you must keep hanging on.

every man or woman of God has to be broken by God at some point

in time. there is when the hardest part comes in, the moulding....

the shaping of your character. it feels so hard, so painful.

but if you can go through it, you would come out like a amazing

porcelain vase. Unique and tough in its own way.

5) Future

the thoughts of how the future is going to be like, keeps me excited.

thinka bout it man... we think NOW we are like so cool.

its only going to get better. the CGs, the zones, the church.

its better and better and better....

and if God thoughts are higher than us, its like mind blowing! haha.

thinking about it, i feel so happy and grateful to HOGC.

its the place i can call home, training ground, army.

you know, there is such a great sense of training, growth and love in one place.

i think it is quite amazing to be building such a church.

it so ironic to people how these 3 words can string and be spoken in the

same breathe. but that is how it is here. isnt is great?

love life - it has many surprises and what ifs for in stored for you.

God is a good God. know that through all these things, it will build you strong.

have faith. everything's alright.

i know b zone is going to grow.

every morning, i am training my mind to think about my zone.

hahah. wanna be zone manager, think about the zone daily man!

B ZONE. B ZONE. B ZONE. B ZONE.

my first and last thought everyday. (:

2008-08-18T19:01:00.002+08:00

its a beautiful beautiful monday...

i mean check out the great trees that we have in singapore

the amazing cars, the nice HDB flats.... how is it hard NOT

to like singapore? hahaha.

really, i like our nation you know. i seriously enjoy it. (:

weekends had always been great. Pastor How was amazing,

he was not feeling well, but yet he preached with all his heart

and the presence of God was so strong.

preaching at GS had been a great chance and great thing.

it was quite scary you know, never really preached something

like that before. But i enjoyed myself alot. haha. learnt alot...

i hope the people were impacted too and would all be inspired

to do your QT even more and building a habit into their lives.

can't wait for Pastor to evaluate me on my preaching so that

i can grow even more as a preacher. (:

im not used to school yet, but its ok. i will get use to it real soon.

if you think about it, i have holidays in another 5 weeks! how good right?

see, uni is not that bad after all.

its quite weird you know, to think that all of us are growing up so fast

when we first came, we were just young kids, 14 - 15 years old

playing around, fooling around...

now we are young men and woman. into one of another phase of lives

that is good, bright, glorious times.

and at this age, we can still all stand strong together and say that

we are still serving God with that same or even more fervency than

before. that same passion and heart that our Pastors have.

at least, our greatest honour is that we get to serve God in such a

wonderful church alongside such awesome pastors.

i think for many of us, it is such a natural way for us.

serving God together, not just coming to church in and not...

but really making a difference in life.

we all can make a difference when and if we want to do.

it is so simple. it starts with a simple decision in life.

accepting Jesus Christ!

please keep Pastor How in prayer for the next few weeks.

he would have a speedy recovery. (:

one last note, I LOVE MY ZONE!

2008-08-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

i'm sitting in the office beside my all time one and only PAMMY

school has been tiring. lectures, tutorials, homework.

but i guess it is good, it forces your capacity to grow.

so on that note, i kinda like school. haha.

i made 4 NEW FRIENDS in school!

quite well done right? i feel quite proud of myself.

hi im cheryl, i am sam's best friend. she is like a good friend.

so is my bestie like monkey.

ok we are all talking nonsense

*disclaimer: apparently, she doesnt know what she is talking about... haha.

but she still is good. really. everybody loves cheryl chan huimin. (:

anyway, recently, so recent that is just like this week

i am started to have a burden for my zone more and more

i dont know how to describe it you know

but like how i shared it with Psts, charleston and ivan,

is that thing on your heart

sometimes, it just on your heart, that when you pray

it comes so naturally, it comes so passionately.

i was quite shocked it myself.

but i guess this is what growing in putting the zone on your heart means.

i like the feeling of it. growth growth growth!

ownership of the zone.

till then. see you all. (:

have fun in school

2008-08-12T15:41:00.002+08:00

school lecture has started... and oh man...

my sleeping mechanism has started too.

she is seriously quite a bitter woman you know.

she is alittle bit weird...

she is your typical secondary school home econs teacher!

alot fiercer and the class alot boring!

she talks so soft, you cant hear her.

apparently she does not like the microphone so she doesnt use it.

ok, i think she is really bitter about everything.

SHE IS FINALLY (i repeat) FINALLY USING THE MIC!!!!!!!

it is a miracle and breakthrough by itself.

she is now making a pregnant lady (asst prof) bend down to help

her fix her mic.

ok, now i am bitter against her....

but she is really too much man. too much.

anyway, whatever about the lecture.

this week, school has started full swing and in a bid to spice up our lives,

today, me and k.lisa was eating in school (cheap and nice food)

after that we saw ALOT of people having coke zero, which lisa

claims that there is free coke. and she is right!

we went on a long walk to find the coke zero and truly our efforts paid off!

at the end of the North Spine, there was free coke zero!

so we had free coke for lecture. haha.

ok, blog more again. i shall attempt to listen to class...

last thought, today when Pst How prayed, it was powerful man

thank God we have such AWESOME Psts! (:

2008-08-06T23:07:00.002+08:00

school has started and it has been alittle tiring man

haha. i think it is due to the long break of not having it

but i think it is going to be good this semester.

i will get at least 3.5 this semester!

pray for me huh...

i had a 3 hour class just now and honestly

i am quite tired man.... hahaha.

these few days is just a time of starting school

a time to get things in order and really LIVE

so that school would be good.

all the lasalle people have started school.

they will do well, i know they will do well. (:

i have just 1 thought really.

build other people dreams.

that's what HOGC is all about.

we build the dreams of others.

we are a dream centre.

it is going to be amazing. (:

goodnight all. i think i will sleep early tonight.

2008-08-02T11:13:00.002+08:00

i just changed my blog skin using wei ling's laptop!
why?
because i dont know how to change my skin using a mac.
that simple. anyway, it is always good to ask for a 2nd opinion
on what skin to use...
im into simple things now adays. less colour, less pictures
but MORE space. (:

today, we reached office at 7.30am.
i mean, it is so so early... i felt like i was back in school.
hahaha. but it was good, i reached on time, in fact alittle early.
today FOP is going to be great too!
I AM GOING TO GRADUATE FROM BMT A!!!!!!!! (:

isabel has gone back to canada.
oh man... im going to miss her so so much.
alot of much. whatever about the english language.
i am missing her already...
it has been a good few months and we were close
i told wendy that thank God she is not going overseas
and you know what she replied me?...
check out our conversation below...

me: wendy, thank God you are not going overseas man
i would just die if you go.. (with a heavy heart)
wendy: ya, no money to go la!
me: wa lau! thats not the point...

silence

hahaha. ok, but seriously, thank God she is her.
ok, got to go! till then, im going off.... byyyyeeeeeee

2008-07-31T15:25:00.003+08:00

i just realised that i have not blogged for a long time!

so i will do so now, today, this very moment.

life has been going on and on and on...

things are happening so fast its just amazing.

we just had another PME evaluation again.

its good, we are a progressive church. its amazing

yesterday's PM was good. many people came and they just prayed.

it was awesome. everything in this church is good.

we are going to be great. stick with us. stick with God.

this is just the beginning of things. hahas.

FOP is this week (tomorrow to be more exact..)!

i am so excited for it.

Pastor How is chairing the entire thing and its like so COOL. (:

charleston is going to pray too.

its so exciting. let's keep Pastor and Charleston in prayer.

confidence, anointing and boldness.

its going to be a great service. i just know it in my spirit.

school is starting next week. isabel is flying off so soon.

im going to miss her like crazy you know.

this whole time she came back,we have just bond and form

such a good friendship. I WILL MISS YOU! (:

but she will be back soon, so its going to be alright.

she will be alright. haha.

i dont know if i am supposed to feel excited about school or not

but i guess it will be good right? oh well... just a few more years

3 more years including this year to graduate.

just a little bit more.

i have decided to make yi lun my new friend in NTU.

and everyday, i am still going to ask fifi if i can scratch her.

hahahah. if you dont know what i mean, just go ask her. (:

but life is good. (:

you grow then you hit a ceiling and then you breakthrough

and you grow and you hit a ceiling and you breakthrough

and you grow....

the cycle goes on. thats what make life great and interesting you know!

ivan is going army soon....

argh. i hate the feeling. its the same feeling i had when charleston goes in.

haah. we will so miss him! but we will take the zone higher while he is gone.

so dont worry ivan! (: the zone is going to grow man.

1400. ta ta.

2008-07-23T18:03:00.002+08:00

BMT A was good!

i think i am going to graduate this time round

hahaha. i enjoyed it alot and after that we went to eat

supper or buy supper with isabel and her parents

it was so nice and sweet to see them talking about church

and all those things as a family.

i am even more inspired to get my family saved too.

one day, it is going to be like that. i can see it.

spiritual adoption is powerful.

there is such an assurance in your heart that it is going to

happen. sometimes you cant explain it, but you know it

im sure many of you know what i mean... (:

i am just rambling some things and thoughts down.

OH! the photog crew these days are just amazing.

really, give it down to them man!

they broken through in some way or another in their skills

and yours truly has learnt somethings to talk to them about

its good you know to take on something you never know

before... it makes you more hungry to learn about things.

but really, the crew are amazing.

i am so proud of them. (:

my mum and brother just came back from HK (yes again...)

its a family favourite place or something.

but seriously, it is a good place. haha. i enjoy it alot.

but anyway, they bought me things which i thank them for.

my mum said my brother chose for me a nice black top...

so im going to go home and see them later.

good topic to open with your brother right?

then i can talk more to him and slowly invite him to church!

such brilliant plans. i feel so proud of myself already.

be faithful to God and He would be faithful to you

my latest revelation... its kinda a long story to tell

and quite a personal one. so yah... but you know

those moments so close with Him that it just brings

you closer to God?

those moments of intimacy with God?

i want it more. i want it even more.

2008-07-18T13:42:00.003+08:00

This is what happens when you try to do something at 2plus am...

hahahas. it is so retarded. i cant believe we could take it...

in fact, we took alot of it.

but really, at the end of the day, we both accomplished what we

needed to do. typing our report! (:

2008-07-16T02:27:00.001+08:00

just 1 last thought.

we are all growing up...

we are no longer young punks who do things

which never cared for consequences in life.

its different now.

"no more lifeguards"

goodnight. (:

2008-07-16T00:51:00.002+08:00

i dont know what to blog about.

but apparently, the only reason i am blogging

is because i think i should update my blog.

oh... anyway, there is so many macs in the office now,

i nearly took the wrong one when i went off for a meeting

in hurry. yarhhh... now you see the confusion right??

but anyway, ntu is a irritating school. they have not send

and settle my time table thingy so i dont know when i am

supposed to go to school! but while checking my mail, they

emailed me saying that from now on, if public hols

are on sat, mon is hols for us too! hahahah.

quite smart la.... but i think they want to not appear too.

ok, i feel so disorganised with this blog post.

but i will still continue blogging anyway.

its the way to keep things alive and well right?

im quite sleeply now after eating.

today's captain's ball was really really good.

we had a lot of fun and it was one of the 'fiercest' match!

yah, we were fierce, which i guess was quite us. (:

wei ling sprain her foot. please pray for my dear zone mate.

i dont know what i am thinking now - the food got to me.

i have a feeling i will sleep early today. hahaha.

i have to go start cars later. cause if not, the cars wont work

as well or something.

being a good daughter, i will do it man. hahas.

goodnight my friends.

Take my dreams

Make me assuredly Yous

2008-07-05T11:52:00.004+08:00

i am in front of my laptop

trying to plan my school timetable...

i hate this. its so hard to try to choose

subjects that you like and place it into

a time table that is good for everything!

and the lousy business school don't let me

take marketing. what nonsense is this??!

how can they not include wonderful students

like me... whatever...

i'm not exactly in a all-too-looking-forward

mood to start school in exactly 25 days time.

the 4 months break has eaten into me.......

oh well, at the best of this depressing thought,

fifi is STILL in NTU, dom is coming to NTU.

it would make my life a little bit less torturous.

hehe. i remember during the first few days of school

fifi smsed everyone "ANYBODY HAVING BREAK NOW?"

hahaha. unfortunately no one had.

but its fun being in the same school as her. i like it, i enjoy it.

i will try my upmost best to NOT pon school this semester.

i will try my best to get my 3.5!!! hahahs.

my mind is in a whirlwind now.

many thoughts in my mind.

i think it is a SUPERBLY CRAM THING.

haha... i will talk to ivan soon.

really really soon...

ok, im going to type my report now.

life is beautiful. (:

2008-07-04T02:20:00.002+08:00

im in a skype conversation with the ICs of fashion and decor...

i proudly present to you, all the nonsense that they talk about

seriously, it is quite powerful.

but i enjoy talking to them so much so much.

i totally love it. (:

you know what excited me the most today?

ZONE RESTRUCTURE! (:

it is so so so good can.

i am really excited about it.

i cannot help but feel like dancing all over the room

and shouting for joy!

like HELLO! this is the potential of growth...

its all fuzz up in a ball.. full of energy, full of potential

to explode and multiply.

i like the idea of multiplication.

its just keeps growing larger and larger.

you cannot help it.

this is what is going to happen to B4.

Now it is only B4, B40, B41.

by the end of 2008, it will be...

B4, B40, B41, B42, B43, B44. (:

i see it coming.

we have taken possession over it already.

we just need to take it.

it is going to be the same for B1, B10, B2, B20, B3.

THE WHOLE ZONE LARH HUH....

school is going to start in like 1 month's time.

i dont know what to feel seriously...

hahas. oh well.... (: let's skip that topic larhs.

anyway, nicholas loh saw my mac desktop picture

and he exclaimed: "WAH! how come you use that pic?!"

so i answered him by simply saying, "nice what, i like it le."

its the pic that is shown when you first get the mac.

yah, i didnt bother changing it.... hahaha.

at that he started to tell me that i should have a pic that

shows myself etc... truly the true photographer speaks.

well me, just am happy with a mac.

but, he nicely and kindly offered some of his self designed

wallpaper to me, so i chose one that i really like!

and you know what, he set it for me!

see, my low level of technology is shown once again...

crapp... its all my brother's fault.

he is too tech-savvy that i just ask him everything.

so NOW, my wallpaper is PROUDLY MINE. (:

i hope it reflects my style enough larh hor nic?

not bad right? hahaha.

till then, life is good.

i need to grow.... roar.

2008-06-24T02:21:00.002+08:00

i have a long long piece of good news about jia jia!

it is so so so cool, i just had to blog about it!

it has made my day, my month! (:

i am so excited, that today, i just went around telling

everyone that i met! hahaha.

so pardon me for my excitement. because it is too much to be contained! (:

basically, here it goes....

jia jia is from hougang sec and she has been coming to church

relatively quite often since red rain.

her parents allow her to come, but were like neutral about things

unknown to her, her parents are also attending her friend's church

so just monday night, her parents asked her to read the bible, pray etc

said that they were wrong about God and that there is a real God!!!

i mean how cool is that???!!!

on top of that, as she knew that jia jia was talking to fedora,

they said since she is so close to fedora, she should go to church with fedora!

hahahaha. so she is so so going to get planted!

and fedora, very very brilliantly told her parents on MSN about our church

and showed them the website! (:

GOD IS SO SO SO GOOD! i am so amazed.

it is so so good. seriously, you cannot deny it is not God.

AHHHHH!! (:

i am so excited. hahahaha. so happy!!

ok, tonight is a beautiful night.

tomorrow we are going to have captain's ball again!

exercise baby....

life is sweet.

oh and i must must blog about this too.

wendy, nicholas and myself had a same word from God

BUILDING LEADERS IS EASY.

seriously, i just kept it to myself...

it has been something that i have always keep to myself

praying about it, just keep trying to do it.

today, as i was reading blogs and talking to wendy on MSN

i read her blog and low and behold, i saw her post that God

spoke to her that building leaders was easy.

i was so so amazed i quickly told her about it and she told me

that nicholas lee also heard the same word from God. (:

haha. we must have faith together alright!

let's reproduce alot alot of leaders.

it is so important to have good friends around you.

they really encouraged you, helped you, inspire you to go on.

dont lose this fight.

i have learnt one important thing...

keep walking on and on.

you will walk out of the valley one day.

i will. and i know others will too. (:

goodnight all.

2008-06-23T13:55:00.002+08:00

i was just thinking about things in the church

about people... about everything possibly you

can and want to think of. haha.

its a additional dimension.

this is so cool... so many things are happening in our church!

so many more leaders are going to rise up.

so many more people are going to find their destiny in God.

we are going to win families to CHRIST now!

from now on, when i count attendance, it would be how many families?

hahaha. no longer how many people.

it was so cool... just taking pics of all the siblings, families team in church.

i was so blown away by it...

i see myself taking it with my family too.

my cousin is going back to HK today.

i so so miss him.

he's a great cousin. i share things with him, i talk to him like a brother

in fact, the weird thing is that i am closer to him than my brother

but i am trying to pull a closer relationship with my brother....

really... im trying quite hard in fact. haha.

i think it is bearing fruits though.

last night as i came home, i was talking to my cousin.

we all wanted to play monopoly, but in the end, we didnt!

cause we were all watching some snooker game that i didnt understand

so half the time both of them have to keep explaining to me what it was about.

but we had good fun. at 3 plus, i gave up and told them that i am going to bed

its too tiring. haha.

but as i woke up this morning, i muttered a short prayer...

that as he goes back to HK, i pray that he would still be close to God

i know that God would be with him, but he needs to draw closer to God.

i will send him off later at the airport. and im trying to make isabel

come with me before she meets fifi so she can say hi to my brother. hahaha.

oh well, i will get my cousin a nice gift and send it over to him in HK.

i think i will get him a good christian book. haha.

so he can continue on with his spiritual life over there... (:

families. families....

sometimes this word never seem close to me, but i understand

the importance of it now. i love my family.

despite its whole messiness, i love my family.

it is exciting to have a big, confusing family, because i no longer see

it as a problem, but i see it was many more chances to reach out to them now

i get the picture now... it is not about how i feel.

it is about how many lives i can touch...

i want to get all of them saved. be it if they are my really blood related ones.

nevermind, God still would want them all the same. haha. so i will reach out to them.

please help me pray along for my brother and uncle's friend.

they are close to my heart and important people in my life.

got to get them saved...

on a more random note.

be strong in God. stand strong, despite everything that has happened,

keep going on. nothing must stop you from God.

i think that when you say you want to give your whole life to God.

you must look back and see what it at your back...

i think there are 2 kinds of people in this case you know...

1) the people who turn back and all they see is a winding path that they have walked past.

their past is far far back already...

2) the people who turn back and all they see is blackness. there is nothing left of them.

what kind of person are you?

i chose to be the one that has turn black and all you see is blackness. i know there is nothing i can turn back too.

there is nothing that i so year for and want for... i cannot tunr back and go back to my past.

it is gone, demolished and burnt. i have no choice left in my life... there is no alternatives.

we must be like that if we say we are serious about God. there is no turning back to your old lifestyle, no turning back to what you have done before. all you can do is to keep going forward.

we all have our times that we spend in the valley.

we just need to keep walking, keep going on....

one day, we will get out of the valley and look back to see

its being cast into the sea and gone forever.

be strong. be radical.

there is no alternatives.

2008-06-18T21:05:00.002+08:00

this is a so random post.

because all i feel like is blabbering now.

so i will blabber on my blog.

i so want to talk to Ivan soon...

i wonder what's the difference between havanians and normal slippers...

i dont know why but i still like hello kitty

im starting to love the song GLORY TO GOD more and more.

its like CONSTANTLY on my itunes and ipod now.

its always playing and playing and there is a smile on my face when its goes

the peace of God comes into my heart.

i miss Pastors and Rinnah VERY BADLY...

i want to cure my sweaty palms.

i dont know why i have so many random thoughts now...

hahaha.

school is starting really soon and dom has alot of wacky ideas

in which i am totally not surprised about.

i want to get my license really soon.

ok, that's quite alot of random things at one go.

tomorrow, i am going to sit down and do my 4th dimension stucture for

all the ministries - fashion, decor, dance, photography.

life is great. yeah yeah... hahaha. (:

2008-06-17T01:10:00.002+08:00

i had a really good day today. (:

i am one happy person... hahahas.

the only thingy that i didnt do was to cut my hair.

oh well...

after watching Narnia... its like so good can.

no mood to cut hair, just want to talk only.

it is so good...

such great plot, great animation, great symbolism.

it was SO GOOD. SO GOOD.

if you haven watch it, please go and do it NOW!!!!

i had alot of favourite scenes actually...

one of them was when King Edmund broke the ice

of the white witch.

in my heart, i was like GO FOR IT MAN! (:

so cool...

and then there was lucy talking to Aslan...

it was so sweet.

He is so mighty, yet so tender.

i mean you feel so so so proud of Aslan

in that movie.

can you imagine that is your God that you love too?

i mean, its like wow...

to think you could do what Lucy does with Aslan

its like one of the best things that you can ever do

and ever ask for in your life.

what more do you feel like asking?

i think sometimes people take God for granted...

i was just watching the movie, then it dawned on me

that we admire the way that Lucy has such close intimacy

with Aslan, how she was like so close with Him...

yet we fail to realise that we can do the same too!

but it is a matter of if we want to take the first step

that Lucy did.

i was talking to Li Ling just now over the phone

and i made her go study after that plus i needed the toilet

but really, she said something that really made me think...

she said that she never knew that God could talk to us and

we could talk to God and she was just so shocked and amazed

at the whole idea.

seriously, to us, sometimes, its so normal, we dont even

thank God for being so available to us.

but really, if you think about it, its not something

we should take for granted.

its an honour... really.

then there was the courageous Peter, who finally knew

after all his pride had been broken and laid at the altar

that he knew he was fighting for the King of kings...

then did the battle started to turn around and the victory

belongs to them. its interesting, isnt it how God works?

(on a side track... he is so so so good looking... haha.)

then there was the one that Pst How talked about..

Lucy and Aslan together... so sweet. so magnificent.

the picture is just so stuck in my mind up to now.

you just cant help but feel proud of your God.

it is so so so great to have Him as God.

i am falling deeper in love.

so deep in love with You.

2008-06-11T04:21:00.002+08:00

before i continue on with my faith structure...

i just needed to blog for just alittle while more.

hehehe. i'm quite sleeply now actually.

for once, i am working on my white table that is quite cluttered.

oh well, i will pack it on the coming monday.

Joshua 1:3

"Every place that the sole of your foot will tread upon

I have given you, as I said to Moses."

It is anointed. It is mine. It is taken. It is conquered.

the promises of Abraham is ours.

the promises of Moses is ours.

the promises of David is ours

the promises of Joshua is ours.

there are approximately 32 500 promises of God in the bible

it is all ours too... all we need to do is to take them.

that simple. that easy.

whatever my foot sets upon, God will give it to me.

it is His promise towards me.

i stand upon this.

FAITH & SUCCESS.

goodnight to all. (:

2008-06-10T17:10:00.002+08:00

i love my life. (:

i just had alittle problem with my blog.

i cant seem to change my blog skin using a MAC!

i don't know why!!!!

but anyway, life has been really really good.

services with Pst Che Ahn was different...

it was something i was not used too, but i felt it was a good time to learn

about such things for one.

learning how to deal with spiritual things and just really really having faith

for many things, what to do etc. hahaha.

seeing Pst Joakim was so cool and with his whole family!

it cannot be better. Hahahaha.

Seeing Pst Joakim is great. i cannot help but feel so happy and excited on the

inside.

monday night we had a good time hanging out with Psts, Rinnah, Pst Joakim and family.

man the music was so cool. haha. fifi found a place in the 80s music.

this is so cute... but at the same time, i really like hanging out with Psts.

its such a great time and you get to learn so much more, see much much more.

ok, and i have noted down my favourite song: FAITHFULLY by journey.

therefore, there are many things that have happened in the 80s that i think

it is so so so cool:

1) Faithfully by journey

2) i was born! (:

3) 80s music was cool... they had simple but nice beat

4) singers were good, they were not that crappy...

so 80s is a good time after all.

Faith and Success is powerful. i love it.

i feel i need to pray even more and committ more time to praying too

i mean God moves when you pray. can't help it when God just moves.

haha. you just shrug your shoulders, feel proud (of your God) and say

oh well, i can't help it. He is too powerful.

i like that kind of feeling... just got to push abit more... have more faith...

pray more, trust God more

B ZONE BREAKTHROUGH 90!

it was good to see 90 again....

we are going through another great time.

we are finally growing again. (:

this weekend is going to be even or equally good man.

i see 100 already. it is ours. we taste it.

OUR CHURCH BROKRTHROUGH 1000 too!

hahahaha. sweet. really sweet...

i'm loving my life.

totally. totally. totally.

FAITH & SUCCESS!

2008-06-04T17:29:00.002+08:00

i realised it has been ages since i last blogged.

oh well... honestly, it is really quite hard to keep up with blogging.

so many things to blog about and it is quite hard to summarise all the time

which is precisely why i never attempt too! so in the end my post is like super

long and i cannot help it. argh. i will learn how to summarise better next time!

hahaha.

Pastors have been amazing. we had a great meeting on monday.

of course services from Fri to Sun is like really really powerful.

it is so important to see yourself a important person... in the team.

when Pastor Lia shared it with me, it really hit me in my heart.

significance... such a powerful thing.

sometimes significance in yourself as a team player

brings the team to another level.

you wouldnt let the team down because you see yourself as significance

it is a spiral upwards only. they isnt anything that goes down...

it is up up and up away... i really learnt it now.

truly, it is a great blessing to be near Pastors.

faith & success...

i was praying the past few days (trying to pray regularly as much!)

and it just hit me on my heart... we need to be even more radical.

check out the 10 values that we need in our lives.

i mean you cannot not be radical if you want to get those values into

your life... it is not about showing them, it is about getting them into

your heart, your spirit.

it is so interesting to see how people respond to things.

you see some would really change and move towards these 10 values

while to others it is just another good sermon.

how you receive it would determine who you are ultimately

so on faith & success, i must must share with you my little faith & success story

i had with joanne today...

well, we were expecting a jam on our way to church so we left like 10 mins earlier

to make sure we can reach on time.

however, the jam was really quite bad, and we were starting to panick alittle

that we might be late! of course, we decided to have faith & success!

so i prayed and ask God to clear the jam if there is in Paya Lebar so we can reach on time.

and the nonsensical taxi uncle had just to attempt to lessen my faith by

saying "ahya, paya lebar confirm will jam one la"

yours truly, did the most sensible thing to do: IGNORE HIM. hahaha.

so i had faith and refused to look ahead by the side to see if there is a jam much ahead of us.

because i want to be able to see the clear way in my mind first.

ENVISION it...

God never fails when you have faith, it was CLEAR and we REACHED CHURCH ON TIME!

hahaha. (:

i was being so smug to the taxi driver man. im sure joanne didnt know that...

but seriously, i was like 'jam? where got jam? so smooth..." hahaha.

i really wanted to write some cool and nice prose or something, but my mind

is not in the exact frame to do it.. so oh well.

rambling is quite nice too. it is the art of putting things together? hahaha.

really, i am quite excited by the whole FAITH thing.

it is just a whole new way of looking and thinking in the spirit.

ENVISION IT.

FAITH AND SUCCESS.

we will grow. we will expand.

not as a CG only, but as a zone, as a church.

i feel i need to be more responsible for my zone.

every week i should know what ivan knows.

the attendance, integration cases...

so from this week onwards, i will make an effort to know

EVERYONE in my zone.

expand and lengthen the cords.

FAITH & SUCCESS.

oh, by the way, some of the leaders are coming over to stay on thurs...

haha. i will attempt to blog more about it too. (:

YIPEE!

get it into your heart.

1) FAITH & SUCCESS

2) YOU ARE SIGNIFICANT/IMPORTANT

2008-05-13T23:47:00.002+08:00

wahhh... it has been ages since i last blogged.

oh well, its really quite hard to keep on blogging and blogging

i wonder how people can do it so faithful you know.

i respect them! (:

i so miss Pastors & Rinnah! i miss them terribly much much much

church without them feels so weird

church without Rinnah feels so weird

AHHHHH... but they are coming back soon!

they would be back by thurs night! YEAH!

this is so so so good. (:

i cant wait for this weekend to hear Pastors

to see Pastors to just recieve from them again.

oh! i am so going to read my bible.

i am just so inspired to not only PRAY but also READ

the word of God. Hence, tomorrow, i will go buy a very

nice notebook and pen down all my revelations.

i have taken out my spirit filled bible and placed it

beside my bed. So that i will never forget to read my

bible before i go to bed. (gosh, it rhymes.....)

i cant wait for things to start happening...

or rather, God is starting to move in the CG once again.

the sow move of God, the whole turning around with

things... it starting

there's zhiyi, there's li ying.

we are getting more people to heaven.

more people who are radical for God.

radical is normal.

to not be radical is abnormal.

we must be radical christians.

we have so many people who are radical

but it is not enough.

everyone of us needs to have that something on

the inside of us. that 'ROAR!'

i can't explain it any better... haha.

so many stories to share.

each one has a story to tell, but all have a common

thing in them.

they are radical people.

more than that, now is the time to also get

all the SECONDARY SCHOOL PEOPLE!!!!!

CHIONG AH! (:

OHHHH!! ZONE F 1st SVC IS STARTING SOON!

GET ALL YOUR SEC SCH FRIENDS TO COME!!!!!!

2008-05-06T10:53:00.003+08:00

the beauty of giving is exhilirating
the rush gush of air into your lungs
and the quick breath you give out
is so refreshing so amazing...
i cant begin to tell you how great pledge day was!

the all so familiar but touching presence of God
the anointed voices of Pastor How and Pastor Lia
its interesting how everything is so familiar, so close to you
yet you are never tired, never bored of it.
it only gets better and better each time...
(i wish i can say that about studying. Hahahaha.)

Psts would be going to korea soon
its going to be such an exciting time for them and
i cant wait for them to be back! (:
im missing them already.... hahaha.

on a more random note, monday, i went to
roller blade with wei ling, wendy and fedora
we had a great time exercising.
i miss doing sports!! AHHHH...
the great smell of sweating and laughter
we have. the funny jabs we have to each other.
its was a great time spent with them.
with or without church, they would still
be my friends.
of course having church just makes things even better!
what better people to build the church with then with them
and with our leaders and Pastors. (:

its going to be an exciting month ahead.

RED RAIN IS HERE!
INVITE ALL YOUR
SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS
TODAY!

2008-04-25T20:43:00.002+08:00

nadine just proclaimed to me that no one seems my profile
thing even though i added something...

so please do go look at it. navigate it with the tiny butterfly
at the top there... it is really cool. i like it. haha.

anyway, i was reading the bible just now and i got
something very powerful out of it.
trust me, tomorrow's leaders meeting is going to
be 'ba ba' one! hahaha. (:
i am very excited for it. it is the thing this season.

the word of God is powerful.
it is sharper than any two-edged sword that would
peirce through the divisons of the soul...
this season, im going to build myself in His word
reading the bible, memorising scriptures.
i am starting to love the Word more and more.

His presence. His power.

its about doing the same thing,
but getting different results.
its about working hard,
with the anointing.

we all have our place in church.
we all must keep growing.
don't be stagnant.
whatever is give to you, God has empowered you
to do it. there is power, there is anointing.
go do it with all your heart.
let everything done in your Name,
be turn to gold.

this season, God, my prayer
is that whatever is done in your name let it
be turned to gold.
let people see that God is the God that
turns things around.
He is faithful. So we got to be faithful too.
small things, big things.
they are all God's things. so treat it with
equal seriousness, equal heart, equal hardwork.

i miss the presence of God now...
blogging about it makes me want to go
back to His arms.

the sweet presence.
the sweet anointing.

the tender touch.
the tender words.

the supernatural highway.

2008-04-21T16:56:00.002+08:00

i've been reading and studying so much my brain is clouded
and swarming with words... nevertheless, its ending soon.
just a little bit more... just that little 2 days.
oh the so irritating 2 days.

so many things have been happening for the day on sunday.
we celebrate Pst Lia's birthday! it was phenomenal. (:
i saw Pst Lia laugh and laugh and we just smiled along.
filling our hearts with that love that we had for our Pst.

but more than that, Pst lead us into praise and worship.
"I'm coming back to the heart of worship,
when it's all about You, all about You, Jesus..."
so heartfelt, so simple, so sincere.
i guess, its always this simple isn't it?
that presence of God, that love for God.
but I tell the presence of God was just so there.
and when Pst started singing chinese songs,
it got even stronger. though i don't really remember
all the lyrics, but i tell you, i recongnise the
presence of God, that thing that comes
so strongly yet so gently.
so forceful yet peaceful.

what better way to end the celebration with such
an anointed presence of God.. (:

OH! and discipleship class was EXTRA-ORDINARY!
once again, we always learn, always caught something
from our Psts.
their inheritance of anointing, spirituality...
OUR HONOUR to serve them,
to build the church alongside them.

there's empowerment from God all the time.
when He places us there, the power comes.
when He gives us the key to the car,
He would teach us how to drive it.
Its all planned. everything, every little thing.
but more than that, its always about being with God.

above the ministry, above the things we do in church,
its about God. BEING WITH HIM. so sweet. so wonderful.

the supernatural highway.

2008-04-11T03:11:00.002+08:00

i have not finish my essay which is due like today at 2pm...
i am only at like 493 words out of my 2,200 words eassy.
AHHHHH......
i want to sleep already. but i wont.
i wont miss my deadlines.....

ok, im done rumbling, gotta go to work!
nights all!

2008-04-10T01:06:00.002+08:00

im at page 61 out of 481 of my textbook!
fe, not bad right?? i have improved since
i was on the phone with you. (:
i am progressing.... and i am so so so
tempted to stop everything and go
and watch shall we dance now!
AHHHHHH.....

me and my great idea of taking a break
while studying for the next few days...
i have a feeling late in the night
(READ: super early in the morning)
while my brother watches soccer,
i would be watching this and halfway,
i will peep into his room
smile every so sweetly and ask
'brother, what's the score now?'
and a short summary....
hehe. thats what brothers are for!
i'm sure he wouldn't mind telling
me. (:
and then i can go back to my
shall we dance?
ok, if i even get to the point of finishing
at least 300 pages odd...

if you are still up or something, call me!
i will update you on soccer and the movie
2 in 1 ok??!!
its a GOOD DEAL.

i know maril would be awake...
cause she is supposed to study like me!
hahaha.
so maril, if you ever read this,
smile and know i am with you!!!
and all uni people who are mugging.
HAHAHA.
it doesnt feel so bad when people
are mugging with you... (:

in the midst of everything
is happening, PRAISE GOD.

ok, really, that's my revelation.
hahahaha. (:

2008-04-08T01:39:00.002+08:00

i hate being sick.
i hate the feeling of being sick.
i hate the thought of being sick.
i hate it. i hate it. i hate it!

i miss sun svc. and it was so so good...
as i was told.
i will get the sermon cd.
better than nothing...

argh, let me get well soon!!!!

its so weird sometimes that when you are young,
all you wished for was to be sick so that you can
stay at home.
then when you are slightly older,
you also wished to be sick.
so that you can pon school, pon pe
pon CCAs, pon anything thats related to school.
hahaha.

but now, i dont wish to be sick!
maybe because i can choose when i want
to go school and not get into trouble.
maybe its because i no longer love to stay
at home so much.
maybe its because school doesnt seem that
bad anymore.

whatever the reason,
I JUST WANT TO BE WELL AGAIN! (:
and to declare that, i just weigh myself.
i lost 1 kg! haha.
ok, maybe i can rejoice on that slightly...
hehe.

but really, i think life is different when you are older
you start growing up, growing more mature...
i guess its no longer about which school to go to,
if your best friend ignores you...
its about what you do with your life. really.
we must face it, some point in time,
we can't just keep playing anymore.

i had a good talk with ivan one night.
it was good... really good.
dont be jealous, we all have our time with our leaders.
haha.
and as usual, mine was superb! (:

life is about hungering for God, hungering for life.
you see, you need to move on.
not just stagant.
it doesnt make sense, if you are growing in God,
but you dont grow in life/knowledge.
God is life...
if you love God, you love life.
if you love growing in God, you would love knowing life.
it all comes together as one.

the power comes when you have the ability to fuse godly
principles into life.
you have the supernatural power, you have the practical
side. its amazingly great.
can you imagine it?????

its the next switch, that next level to come... 2.0

things have just been coming up and up..
im alittle worried about my exams.
but i will do well.
i will study and do well!
i so want B4 to break 30 soon. ARGH!
REAL SOON! (:

till then, i need to sleep.
if not i wont be well... haha
nights.

have fun in life!

2008-04-02T18:43:00.004+08:00

this is so cool. i just HAD to blog about it.
i stole it from Fifi's blog... hehehe. i'm sure she won't mind anyway.

A priest passing through his church
in the middle of the day,

Decided to pause by the altar
and see who had come to pray.

Just then the back door opened,
a man came down the aisle,

The priest frowned as he saw
the man hadn't shaved in a while.

His shirt was kind of shabby
and his coat was worn and frayed,

the man knelt, he bowed his head,
Then rose and walked away.

In the days that followed,
each noon time came this chap,

each time he knelt just for a moment,
A lunch pail in his lap

Well, the priest's suspicions grew,
with robbery a main fear,

He decided to stop the man and ask him,
'What are you doing here?'

The old man said, he worked down the road.
Lunch was half an hour.

Lunchtime was his prayer time,
For finding strength and power

'I stay only moments, see,
because the factory is so far away;

as I kneel here talking to the Lord,
This is kind a what I say:

'I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY,
BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO, JESUS, THIS IS JIM
CHECKING IN TODAY.'

The priest feeling foolish,
told Jim, that was fine.

He told the man he was welcome
To come and pray just anytime.

Time to go, Jim smiled, said 'Thanks.'
He hurried to the door.

The priest knelt at the altar,
he'd never done it before.

His cold heart melted, warmed with love,
and met with Jesus there.

As the tears flowed, in his heart,
he repeated old Jim's prayer:

'I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU,
LORD, HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
I DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY,
BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO, JESUS, THIS IS ME CHECKING IN TODAY'

Past noon one day, the priest noticed
that old Jim hadn't come.

As more days passed without Jim,
he began to worry some.

At the factory, he asked about him ,
learning he was ill.

The hospital staff was worried,
But he'd given them a thrill.

The week that Jim was with them,
Brought changes in the ward.

His smiles, a joy contagious.
Changed people, were his reward.

The head nurse couldn't understand
why Jim was so glad,

when no flowers, calls or cards came,
Not a visitor he had.

The priest stayed by his bed,
He voiced the nurse's concern:

No friends came to show they cared.
He had nowhere to turn.

Looking surprised, old Jim spoke
up and with a winsome smile;

'the nurse is wrong, she couldn't know,
that in here all the while

everyday at noon He's here,
a dear friend of mine, you see,

He sits right down, takes my hand,
Leans over and says to me:

'I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, JIM,
HOW HAPPY I HAVE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND THIS FRIENDSHIP,
AND I TOOK AWAY YOUR SIN.
ALWAYS LOVE TO HEAR YOU PRAY,
I THINK ABOUT YOU EACH DAY,
AND SO JIM, THIS IS JESUS
CHECKING IN TODAY.'

2008-04-02T16:36:00.002+08:00

i just washed ruffles's clothes. haha. i like clean bears. (:
whatever, that was just so random...

exams are coming soon. in 2 weeks to be exact!
oh well, i better start studying.
as Pst How preached. we must attack the problem!
so i am going to start attacking my problem by - STUDYING.
i am looking forward to my holidays.
man, they are looking sweeter than before.
its getting closer. Holidays, you and me are so TOGETHER.
let's very part... i cannot do with you. hahaha.

this weekend, its going to be great. as the week passes,
from the monday blues, to the tuesday clues...
i get more and more excited about service.
i get more and more excited everything! haha.

HOGC 2.0.
burn your bridges.
bide them goodbye.

its a new level man. processes, trainings....
i will go on. i will go on.
nothing is going to stop me.
nothing, nothing nothing.

alot of times, we seem to be the one asking God, why God about this, about that, why this happens, why is it not like that etc..
but sometimes, i think we should step back and think...
have i given my best to God...

"set my feet, in Your ways
to be worthy of Your call"

set me Lord, to be worthy of Your call...

this is not about me and my feeling and emotions.
God its about You. (:
sometimes, i cant express this to myself...
sometimes, i cant tell you how i feel.
but whatever it is,

just keep going in God.
its worth everything of you.

i better go do my assignment now!

tata!

2008-03-26T03:12:00.003+08:00

before i KO, i decided to blog about this MR NICE GUY... (the one on the left)
he let fedora and me have the two seats on the train. haha.
thus, i shall blog about him.

we went shopping with kennth in the evening and then movie with daryl
ahhh... it was fun. it was great. LET'S DO IT AGAIN some day ok?! haha.
and daryl, our CRAB SESSION is VERY VERY ON.
welcome to the crab loving session.
you cant have a neutral stand towards crab. you must LOVE crabs...
then you can eat with us ---- Bo Xue, Daryl and Me!
we were all so glad when we realised we love crabs.
i knew that immediately there was a connection. haha.

ok, i dont know what i am talking about...
anyway, i think i am going to watch movies for 4 days straight in a role. haha.
if i do, i think 8 Days or something should pay me money.........
i will do the reviews for them. hey, im a english major ok... haha.
it is good stuff.
whatever.

B4 is GROWING.
i know it.

TU LU.

2008-03-24T19:35:00.002+08:00

it is gone...
forever into eternity...
i have no more of him...
those were the days, of hurt, guilt and shame...
it is over...

it has come.
the first tears of joy.
coming into greater discoveries.
great resounding of cries, laughter and happiness.
it has the beginnings.

it is the day!
no longer just me!
we have become together always!
hear the giggles, those smiles and tiny eyes!
finally the long awaited arrival!

ok, if you are wondering what it means. its just my water baptism! hahahaha.

the death of your old man.
the birth of the new man.
the wedding with Christ.

now it is all into perspective! i had this great inspiration to play around with the punctuation.
thus you can gladly see the difference. or at least, i hope you do. (:

life is sweet. i cant explain to you how glad i am to finally be water baptised.
when you can, go get baptised. maybe you would come up with this new poem.

oh, my mum, dad, brother came!!!!!!!!
ITS REALLY COOL. and to add on to another COOL fact.
my mum is actually aunty yan ping's long time friend.
how connected can we all be???
and to think long ago, i used to call KS as my brother.
oh my... maybe when i was young, i did call him before.
or maybe, just maybe i played with him before too! haha.
whatever it is. for so long, i finally got my mum and brother to come to church.
yes!

one day, if somehow my brother googles and looks at my blog.
i just want to tell you, that brother, you are the best brother in my life. (:
now, while you are reading this, come to church with me too ok? haha.

i dream that one day, we can share our testimony together.
i dream that one day, we would serve God together.

Easter is over. the harvest is here.
we will grow. we wont be below 100 again.
i want to grow.
its going to be a sweet victory.
hands down victory, not marginal.

2008-03-19T23:44:00.003+08:00

i am trying to get into a all lit mode now as i attempt to do my essay due tmrw.
life is good as a student. really. you get to stare in front of the laptop for LONG time
and your parents can't say anything.

... sam ah, sleep early. so late already why are you still on the laptop?
... im doing my schoolwork, will sleep soon.

haha. i am really. attempting too.
besides that, oh well, you cant help digressing alittle right?
in another month, i would finish the 1st year of my uni.
OH YES! (:

more than anything else, easter is like coming coming coming.
i am excited about it. excitedly excited.
crap, thats bad english... but nevermind. whatever..

we had a cool prayer meeting today with B4.
this zone's growth is in our hands.
aint the leaders only, but everyone of us.
we all grab a stick, support the big big board.
you know what i mean if you came for prayer meeting.
if not, call me man (lady rather), i will gladly tell you ALL about it.
of course, seriously, with chew theng around, we all headed down to EAT
LOTSA prata.... hahaha. its good. we ate and talk. talk and ate.
sweet time together, sweet time to talk. ahhhh...

easter is going to be just like that.
hang out with us. talk to us man, there's so much more we love to hear about you
hahaha. ok, here it comes... i feel it... my lit vibes are taking over...

sweet talking aint doing any trick on me and you
icing on the cake, whisky on the rock
wont work out, it goes out just like another rule
pouring onto the floor, throwing it away
purity aint just about colour
its the heart that matters
we hear it, we love it

ok, i just got interrupted with good news!
darren has recieved his interview letter from lasalle! YES!
ok, im abondoning the poem. whatever.
haha, you can continue for me if you have the inspiration. (:
we'll pray for you darren. dont worry man!

till then,
please pray too that my family and brother would come.
i really want to see him saved.
if you see him on sunday, please go say hi.
he's pretty shy. but hey, its a great brother.

back to my work.... anyway, i got a great title for my essay already.
'Bottled up emtions of a child in an adult'. hahaha

2008-03-11T14:56:00.003+08:00

ok, this is illegal. its really illegal. its not supposed to be done.hahaha.
i'm in my project meeting and instead of attempting to do our work,here am i blogging.
oh well, let's put it this way. i'm efficient!
while they are still trying to complete, i think mine is more or less quite in tact.
now it is just waiting for them to try to compile everything or at least try...

AHHH... i want to go out of school.

but seriously, i think i have learnt alot in church.
you have character change, your value system gets changed, you learn to work well
we are competent people. i see it now adays more you know...
universitiy is different. it makes you grow up. it forces you to grow up.
we are no longer kids, no longer children who play around all day.
we have business to do. - just what kind of business we are busy with.
the thoughts, the complexity of life, somehow it shows even more.
i try to avoid it, i tried to dodge it... but it comes up to you even more.
i have learnt that you need to show them the difference in your life.
its more significant to show them how you lead your life.
they all have a life. someone into commmittee, some into clubbing....

i'm busy with the things of God.we are not playing church.
we are into this for real.
it is REAL... in your face...
we got to give it our all.
busy with school or busy with other things, we just got to give it our best.

in another 3 days, im going to be 20.
the next time i have a 1 in front, would be when i am 100...
that's if i can live that long and Jesus has not come back yet...

seriously, i feel older.
i am no longer that 14 year old kid that first step into HOGC.
its the greatest blessing to serve God, serve Pastor in my past few years.
i think one of the best time is working in church.
volunteering in church.
i have learnt so much, grew much more just being around.
yesterday, while i was on PA, i learnt so much...
the love of Pastors, the faithfulness of Pastors, so many so many...

i love church. i will be here till the end.
hogc 2.0. i will be here.

thank you Pastors for being here and guiding me through these 6 years. (:

2008-03-03T15:28:00.005+08:00

oh well, ok, while on a more family-ness mood, i decided to post some pictures!
first - my cousin and me. i mean, he lives in HK, but trust me, eh is cool. way cool. he's getting there as a christian. he's saved. now just that little bit of coming to church.

second - my brother and me. hahaha. i think we smile alike. its quite obvious he's my brother huh... hahahaha.

i realised that many times we talk about loving others, loving people etc.

that sometimes, we ignore the people whom we really should show love

OUR FAMILY.

at the end of the day,when you go home, despite all the 'stuff' that happens,

they are the ones that you know, you want to get them to heaven.

sometimes it seems harder to love and reach out to them then its usually is.

but then, you dont need to build a relationship with them, it should be there!

if not, ok, please start from the basics.... hahaha.

you see, at the end of the day, if you want to chiong it for God, want to come full time

etc etc etc... you need to have a good family life.

i mean how can you be serving God etc and at the end of the day, your family is in a mess, your family hates you, they think that christians are people who are like that...

but if you are close to your family, best still, get them saved, then you can really give your 100% to serving God, to doing all the things that we want to be.

its that simple to get a good family life - LOVE. <3

ok, i am going to read revelation and daniel by this week. haha.

im prepared for end times this coming weekend. hehehe. if you know what i mean...

maybe God placed me in NTU so that i can long travelling time to read! hmmm...

oh lastly.... my recent love. MY MANGO TANGO. ahhhh. hahahah. *winks*

2008-02-27T04:24:00.002+08:00

i've blog about the leaders of B2 and B4.
how can i not blog about my LEADERS above me?
i LOVE them lots. lots. lots. lots. many many lots.

so what post is this?
its not a declaration of LOVE.
that's passe.
its a declaration of "HONOUR"

Pastor How and Pastor Lia
my spiritual parents,
my pastors,
my commandos
they fight countless battles, brave through thousands storms
take hold of victories that everyone claims impossible

they love.
they lead.
they command.
i gladly follow their every step.
placing my feet on their single foot print

i will pick up my sword to fight for them,
lay down my life like any good soldier.
do whatever they do, because
i want to do what they do.

Charleston
My zone leader, my A level studying partner (with darren yeo too...)
what am I to pro-claim about him
his thoughts, his understanding brings me to another level
his discipleship, his strategies
changes your thoughts and your heart
aligning them, casting them into their right place
he teaches with passion, preaches with love
having him as my ZL - i got nothing more to say. (:

Ivan
My leader, my closest friend (soon to be.. hahah)
he is THE MAN.
the person who always encourages, who always teaches
who flies past so fast, but always with somebody along
he inspires, he brings you forward, he believes in you
i will follow and share my thoughts with him,
because he is THE MAN.
i dont want his faith only. thats too little.
i want everything he has in the spirit.
replicating it to the core of all things.

to them, i pledge my loyalty, my honour for life.
its the best thing that i can ever do.

2008-02-25T00:44:00.002+08:00

this is a post.
a post of a declaration of love.
a post of a celebration of success.
a post of the greatness of B2 B4 leaders.

a post to LOVE...

to 'pretty leong'
simplicity is beauty,
complex of the angles of life
you know nothing
you shave it off with faith
to put it off your face
passion propels you forward
going to greater heights
a woman knows it of the greatness inside

to 'LAI sin fei'
the smile that brings the joy
the love that brings tears
to the blanket of concern
its infectious, dont doubt it
it spreads around, bringing the life
showing Christ to others
she has it,
she takes it further

to 'ah gong'
the laughter that roars down to hell
that uplifts the souls of the depressed
the fighting that will never end
the re-fuelling of the spirit
will come
the time comes to accelerate and fly
it would take off
soaring in the sky

to 'ah piat AKA rong rong'
the bouncer of lives
pulling them into heaven and guarding them
he know its importance, he tries all ways
the drive, the desire
speeds past F1 track
the track he races, the pathway of life and death
he sees, it knows it
he changes it

to 'chao ge'
the mix of life can be confusing
let the sound of symphony engulfs the problems
bringing into it a powerful rain
rain that causes the dove to fly further
giving the strength into a new life
to let it go on
into flight
flight for a further distance

to 'maine'
small is a word to tiny for her
the strength coming forth,
the desire for food
goes beyond, goes above, goes around
unknown to many
the battles she fights
she goes on and on
claiming everything in her way

to 'pang chew'
the screams, the hollows
bring forth the power
knowing people, getting the people
into the only way of life
believing, having faith
going the extra mile
winning people to the white gate
to the narrow way

to 'fe'
the writer, penning down the names
to know, to understand, to sow
into the fields with the bare hands
the rush of the ink
the adrenaline of the soul
creating history
for eternity
into the Book

to these people. the series of 'TO's.

2008-02-20T23:58:00.002+08:00

today was a great day.
hanging out with people. getting to know su min is AMAZING.
it is like trying to improve my chinese. trust me, talking to her was cool. way cool.
i learnt many new chinese words. for now, im starting to like chinese abit more.
HAHAHAHA.
talking to sylvia's new friend... joy... getting all excited about DS with her.

just as i reached home to take a break from everything.
i did my resume and cover letter due tomorrow. 3rd year, i can do internship as 1 of my subjects! hahahah.
and guess where am i applying too? HEART OF GOD CHURCH. (: i will wait for that day. hehe.

and also DEBBIE PANG ROCKS. hahaha. come on...

as i finished my schoolwork, i decided to read my bible and pray alittle first.

"only fear the Lord, and serve Him in truth with all your heart; for consider what great things He has done for you."

1) fear God

2) serve God

3) do things truthfully with all your heart

God has done many things for us but even up to now, His promises hold. which means as long as we can do these 3 things, God will do it for us. His hand moves for us. His power comes.

we are well equipped to do things through Christ. His strength brings up forward. when we feel we cant carry on, He comes through for us.

sometimes, it is not very hard to learn how to be like God. it is about putting your heart to wanting to be like God and willing to change and grow. 3 simple steps. keep on going. keep it going.

life is good. life is great. we are surrounded by the best role models all the time. we have no reason not to grow. its a choice you need to make.

a choice to follow. a choice to desire to grow. a choice to change. a choice to everything.

2008-02-19T02:50:00.003+08:00

sometimes i get attacked by a swarm of thoughts
they come in all directions, at different things
they whirl me around in a complicated dance
in a tune that i am all so familiar with...
at the end of the day, i put down them in a little book
in a little corner

these thoughts would grow bigger.
they would seem to come true
they turn you around
but if you dont like them, you give them a big scare
and trash them away.

its that simple when you have many thoughts.
you learn what to keep, what not to keep.
you learn how to deal with them and let them work for you.

what i cant help is to have many thoughts.
but what i can do is to learn how to make it work for me.

HOGC 2.0
now is the time.
a time to grow,
a time to change.
a time to move on,
a time to fight this war.

it starts with us. it comes from us.
we need to pick up the sword, be ready anytime, all the time.
when we turn, we turn together.
when we 'chiong ah', we 'chiong ah'together.

it starts with me.
today, i decide things are going to be different.
today, how i see and work are going to be different.

good bye to my own world.
its a new book, not a new chapter.

2008-02-15T00:26:00.002+08:00

i am now talking to all the leaders in B2 and B4 on a conference.
while we were talking about integrations and new friends, we couldnt help but decide to fellowship over the phone! haha.
man, i tell you, check out the nonsense and fun we had. it is truly our nonsense.
no one can beat them in this kind of conference.
somehow, we all manage to swing in between zone chalet, people work, google websites, cute thingy... super alot of things.
awww... those long long conferences with them are always fun.
who cares if there is school tomorrow! hehe. maybe NTU would turn into a pillar of salt?? (:

school is starting to pile on in work again. i realised that i have holidays in 2 weeks time! YES!
but before that, i got 2 assignments, 1 test this coming monday. 1 more assignment due on thurs!
then TA-DA i am done for half a semster. then i would have finished 1 year of uni... when i finished this semester. soon soon soon.
time flies!

bintan trip was really fun! i finally returned to my brown and normal skin colour. HAHAHA.
i love my skin colour. i look healthy. i hope it never fades... (:

on another note, read 1 and 2 Samuel. Its powerful.

2008-02-09T18:23:00.000+08:00

finally i'm back updating my blog.
cny has been good so far.
we played, we rested.
we ate, we sang.
we danced, we talked.

i went to malaysia with part of my family and for the very very FIRST time at 2008, i played with real fireworks! (:
mind you, it is real like those you see at NDP... ok, maybe less glam, but definately exciting and fun.
i'll upload the pictures to show you how they do it later.
my brother is my model. haha. since i am taking the pictures, he has to do it for me to take. not willingly, cause i kinda just did it and he didnt protest either. so it would work out fine. im sure.

you have to put it in this glass bottle (empty beer bottle works well) and put the thing there and light the fuse and run. if not, you're hand could be burnt if you are not fast enough. then you see the thing just shoot in the air and burst open and ta da. FIREWORKS! the next thing you look out for is if the thing flies down and it doesnt hit your head. thats the scary part.

but as i was looking at the fireworks, i thought of many many thing.
then again, i always think of many things at one time. i dont know why.
but like i was saying, isnt it interesting to see how the thing flies up and burst into such beautiful and the next thing you know, its like gone.

so many times i have seen people come and go like that.
you see, its very simple actually.
just got to keep on going.
you dont need to look at the back or to the side and compete.
its good sometimes, but it cant kill you. it should motivate you.
if it fails to motivate you, then i rather you ignore it.
at least, you can still go on...
dont be a flash in the pan.
it ain't nothing to be proud of.

gotta have substance.
fireworks are good, they are fun.
but they arent gonna last.
they keep you busy for 5 secs, show its beautiful for 10 secs
and then its gone.
who remembers how was the pattern, how did the thing form.
you cant, i cant.

what you can remember is that it once had its beauty.
i dont care about being a beauty queen.
it doesnt interest me.
what i care and wanna know is how can i change the world.
no 'world peace' speech is going to get anywhere if you dont do anything.
it cant bring the message across. its just a statement.

you got to step out. do something. action talks.

i like action packed movies. they let their actions talk more than the characters talk.

2008-02-01T23:52:00.000+08:00

today as i went to cut my hair, pam told me about this car accident that my friends were involved in.
nothing against them. dont want to comment much.
1 of them who died was my primary school friend...
i remember the times in primary school.
you dont talk, you yell and chase each other around...
you tease each other, pull the girl's hair.
smile at each other with the mischevious grin and just soon after, start chasing each other all over again.
the constant "i don't friend you"phrases that you have in your mind, the cries when someone bullies you so much etc etc
that guy was very much 1 of them.
to think that he was at the prime of his youth.
he was my friend that i played with in pri school.
the time where now, i am ready to go forth to do greater things, he is no longer here...

but yet, i have another friend whom is interesting someone that bullies me.
someone that i hated in pri school, but nevertheless, somehow, God created a waythat he is my very good friend now.
it is just so interesting how things turn out sometimes.

somehow, my heart feels a little heavy.
maybe if he was genuinely in love with Jesus, he wont be in this state today.
life is full of unpredictabilities...you lose some battles, you win some batttles.
ultimately, at the end of the day, if you have fought it to the best, i guess it is better than going away with nothing.
it would never be a total win thing anyway. you just need to learn from those you lost and fight it again.
you need to come back stronger than before.

lose the battle, but win the war.
go with the end in mind.
see things far, see things greater.
then you would know what are you fighting for.

2008-01-29T01:39:00.000+08:00

crap. my laptop has OFFICIALLY crash.
oh well, the amazing feat that it can survive the many months of standing on its own with a support, it has made me proud.
well done, now you can retire in peace and be rested.... in the mean time, i need to go and buy a new laptop, take out the hard disk.

this generation is going to be competent and successful.
anyway, today as I was on PA, uncle goh was stating how a few millionaires become millionaires...
hence, after this lesson, i kindly summarized it into a few points for ALL ASPIRING millionaires!

1) dump the cab, take the bus (they take bus from the airport WITH the luaggage home!)
2) save every single cent you have

according to uncle goh... we dont even have enough money and we keep taking the cab until we are broke. but these millionaires, even if they have alot alot of money, they still save the money.

ok, maybe i should just stop taking cabs.... hmmmm....

if i can succeed in stopping to take cabs till the end of the year, maybe i will be a thousand-aire. HAHAHAHA. i will try seriously. to save money. with the increase cab fare, its madness.

anyway, on a second note, i am very excited because i have bought a lot of new books to read! this is so exciting. this year, it is a year of growth. i need a solid platform in my spiritual life to take me far and further in God.

the years of building yourself... i dont want to burn out ever in ministry and be a normal christian when i am 40.
when i am 40, i want to be able to say that at 40 (if Jesus has not come back), i am still serving God with the best of my abilities and giving all that i can. then truly, can i say i have live life to the fullest.

the future is amazing.

2008-01-23T00:47:00.000+08:00

ignite conference is over. finally.
many things i have learnt from the conference, many memories, many great moments.
Pst Joakim was back again. this time with a whole batch of ny gen people.
it was amazing how everyone just seemed to click and talk and talk and talk...
the feeling to be able to talk was great. but that "thingy" to talk about something we all knew and we all held so strongly in our hearts was another.

i love hearts.
yes, for its romantic love, but more for the deep connection beneath.
its that feeling that you look at each other, just an understanding that goes beyond words.
the flow. the click. the "oh yeah". you know what i mean.

i am not a very words person, but i love pictures...
the picture of beauty doesnt lie in the look of things. its deep. (:

northbrooks camp is coming. im looking forward to it with all my heart.
there is no words to describe it... its the time.

to end it all...

if the world had no war, there would be no understanding of good and evil
if hearts did not exist, there wouild be no love between anyone
if tears had vanished, there would be no pain to feel for something
if there was no God, there would be no you and me

its simple, really. not complicated.
choose it the way you want

2008-01-10T02:45:00.000+08:00

tomorrow, i have class at 9.30am.
i predict this would be the conversation between me and mum tomorrow morning:

*at 7.30am*
mum: wake up already, if not gor gor wouldn't wait for you. you know he never likes to be late.
me: yah. but it is still early. 8am then wake up *goes back to sleep*
mum: ask you to sleep early, you don't want to sleep, now cannot wake up
me: *ignores mum and continue sleeping*

*by 7.55am*
mum: wake up already. you're really going to be late. gor gor is eating his breakfast.
me: he hasnt change yet and i dont eat breakfast. i will eat it in the car when he is driving. i want to sleep. (at this point, the thought of ponning school is so great. SO GREAT that its just so great)
mum: up to you la, if you dont want to wake up, he is not going to wait for you, then i dont know how you are going to go to school.
me: (by this time, my alarm rings and i wake up to bathe)

yes, that's my life when i wake up tomorrow. i wonder if i really would end up ponning school. hehehe.

till then, i must say that God is good. He gave me a brother who can drive me to school. (:
that is VERY VERY important. I need to get him saved. I want to see him in heaven.
He's the best brother to have. haha.

NIGHT NIGHT to my world

2008-01-09T02:54:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR. NEW SKIN. (:

two things i'm thinking about today:
1) team
2) environment

after being in so many team thingy in the past, the team that i am now in is the best.
let it be band, cheerleading, basketball... i think the team that i am with is still the BEST.
i wouldn't trade it for any other thing in this world. i am very sure about this.
above this, i am going to build teams. teams that support the church. teams that flow. teams that replicate the heart of our Pastors.

TEAM. TEAM. TEAM. TEAM.
i'm in love with this already.

the environment we live in, would determine who we are.
the environment we allow things to happen, would be the values of the people in there.
whatever you focus on building in the environment, would become the things that people focus on.

the more i do what i do, the more i love it.

school has started. introductory lectures were not that bad...
next week, school swings in full fledge once more.
oh well, another few more years, i would graduate with 2nd upper class honours at least.

i am SAMANTHA. spiritual and smart. it goes well together. (it all starts with 'S'). HAHAHA.

goodnight as i succumb to my blanket and pillows...

2008-01-08T01:27:00.001+08:00

right, i forgot to welcome '08...

HELLO '08!! (:

i will blog sometime later... my brain is failing me.

the thought of school tmrw, doesnt make me happier. hehe.

can i pon school on the first day??? i mean it is INTRODUCTORY LECTURE right?

so its not the main thing after all... argh. ok i will go.

oh. jay chou is my new friend this weekend. i love 'wo bu pei'. ok, i know its emo.

but hey, at least i have emotions.... haha. and dont worry, i can control them. the worst of me, is my smiles, not my frowns. look at all my pictures! i cant emo. i dont look good. ask eric, he knows it.

i think i should have a smiles album. HAHAHA. maybe i can enter the world record by smiling? is it possible? oh well, i will make it to God's book. thats MOST important to me.

im tired, but i dont want to sleep. simply because i dont want school to start. argh.

but the touch of my blanket.... ahhhh... so unresistable.

and yes jonathan (no no), i promise i will go to your school to eat with you. (: its in my blog. im a woman of my word. hahaha.

oh lastly, about the picture: generations. God is a God of generations.

2008-01-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

Pst has been preaching on a powerful series of love.

we need to come up to a GOD level of love.
its so easy to say i love you, but to truly mean it and show it is a different matter all together. sometimes i wonder how come people in the world break up in their relationships so easily, they take relationships like eating nuts. after the novelty of discovering something new, its mysterious-ness is gone. the bare truth of just the nut. they throw it away. but God takes everyone of it seriously. love is more than just saying it.

on that, i feel that myself, this 08, im inspired to love the word of God more.
im going to listen to 1 sermon everyday. change starts from the inside.
renewing of the mind comes by listening the word of God.
so i am going to listen more sermons, read the bible.
as i learn to love others, so i will expand in loving Him more.

B zone is the best. i wouldnt trade anything for this zone. (:

2007-12-28T10:19:00.000+08:00

the power of LOVE

few words, multiple actions
never taking, ever giving
heart-felt thanks, lovely smiles
let it shine, with a glowing light

turning around, pericing darkness
through the tunnel of everlasting brightness
no one knows, no one sees
but LOVE covers all of these

lingering scents, flowers in bloom
shining stars, pearly white shoes
let it shine, with a glowing light
let it shine, with all its might

2007-12-16T02:54:00.000+08:00

VBS has ended.
it had been such a busy 2 weeks for everyone of us!
busy & excited. tired & happy. it conflicts...
but WHO CARES! hahaha. i totally loved VBS.
it was madness being part of the planning team.
nevertheless, on the thursday where everything ended,
ON THE FRIDAY, I SLEPT.... i felt like i was in a coma.

more than that, i felt that we all learnt a very important lesson through VBS.
i felt more connected to Pastors, which I am sure that everyone of us who attended
VBS felt the same way. *winks*
if you are not sure what i mean, then you must have missed the MOST important
part of VBS! Go find our from your friends! (:

but, no time to waste! CHRISTMAS IS NEXT WEEK!!!!!
i am going to get my friends to come for xmas! they need God man. hahaha.
this is life. So exciting. things just keep happening and happening.... WOO HOO.

you know, i am very very in awe of Pastor Lia.
just during 1 of the VBS sessions, Pst Lia slept only 1 hour just to teach us
and she preached from 12pm all the way till 6pm. HELLO, you know how powerful is that??
then last night, Pst Lia was working till 6 plus again and today there was service.
and you know what, when you see Pst, you never feel tired.
you feel such a buzz, such a something on the inside. I always wonder how is that possible??!!
i mean, do it to me and i would just die for 2 days or something. HAHHA.
ok, there's a reason why i am not Pst Lia YET. (:

give me time, i would be a replica of her soon....

2007-11-30T16:54:00.000+08:00

today, i discovered something new about my zone mate...
WEI LING! hahahaha.
she's powerful. really. dont underestimate her i tell you.
anyway, she tried to bribe me into not revealing 1 of her secret,
first with chicken wing, then with our 1 + 1 = 130 logo thats pink.
im not so easily bribed!!! HAHAHAHA.
as she is trying to bribe me, she is sayin "so, i wont see my name on your blog tonight".
HAHAHAHAHAHA. oh my, she is wrong! too bad.
anyway, i would keep her secret for her because she rocks.

our zone is going to grow grow grow.
with people like that, how to not grow?
time for ZONE BBQ!

(:

2007-11-26T20:50:00.000+08:00

WE BROKE THROUGH! (:

B ZONE: 113! WE PAST 100 AGAIN!!!

B2: 42!
B4: 28!

HAHAHA. FEAR US MAN. I told you we were going to be the fastest growing zone.

every zone is growing and breaking through! this is exciting.
this is what LIFE is about.

130, its nothing. its coming already.

jian ming told me on sunday, God spoke to him that there would be a breakthrough for him pastorally in 2 weeks!
i am so excited for B1!

i am so excited for the whole zone. We are ready, now it is coming.

thank you God for bringing this growth.
without you, i am nothing.
without you, we labour in vain.
build your House to the way it is meant to be.

Following the Heart of God...

2007-11-26T19:42:00.000+08:00

my laptop screen finally decided to give way...
it is half detachable now!!! WHATEVER.
im going home to tell mum about it. maybe my MAC would come soon.
hehehe.

anyway, i just wanted to test out my new blog skin which i changed.
i just read finish the book BUT GOD by phil pringle that Ivan lent me!
it is so cool can. i totally love it. will blog more about it later.

when everything else seems impossible, BUT GOD would make it possible.
when people look down on you, BUT GOD would raise you up.
when 130 seems so far, BUT GOD would do it for us.

watch how GOD would change everything for the best.

2007-11-24T01:48:00.000+08:00

i couldnt help thinking about many things as i lay in bed tonight.
i sat down and thought to myself, how many Heart Awards I have been through, how many youth/zone camps have i sat in, how many years of Pastors' preaching have i enjoyed, how much love have i received from Pastor How, Pastor Lia.... etc etc.

i hold on in being a idealistic person. i dream.
i am staying till the end.
i am building this church with my Psts and leaders.
i dont care how others may look at me.
i am radical and i like it the way it is.

call my crazy, but hey, at least i am crazy over something.

i thought to myself today about zone camp. about everything that had happened.
i tear about people whom were close and have left.
BUT i grin about how people have rose up and grew.
as charleston said "today, was the 1st time, we could run a night revival ourselves, we have come up a new level."

NEW LEVEL.

fresh anointing.

2007-11-15T03:14:00.000+08:00

im too tired to continue study so i end up listening to music!
hahaha. And i am listening to JOE SATRANI!

i got his cd from daniel the other time and just basically rip it into my laptop.
Anyway, i am so inspired by Pastor How to get a MAC notebook. WHEN?
when my mum agrees with me that my laptop (ASUS) is lousy. i strongly discourage
anyone to get this brand. if you want to find out why, firstly, ask xinjie.
secondly come look at it yourself.

ok, i will finish this chapter before i sleep. at least tmrw, i only need to read 2 more
I HOPE... AHHHHHH!!!!
God, you got to help me do well in my exams.
cant wait for exams to end, i wanna to do more. i feel that i can do more.

i have self control, im going to study now.

ONE THOUSAND. ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY.

2007-11-15T03:05:00.000+08:00

the breakthrough - its coming.
i know it, i see it.

nothing is going to stop this from coming.

the gush of the wind
the pellets of the revolter
the waves of the sea
the roar of the people

through this it will come
the praises to the King
the harvest of souls
it has come....

on this note,
ZONE CAMP IS COMING!
VBS IS COMING!

actually, just come for everything! hahahaha.

2007-11-06T01:15:00.001+08:00

i think i should be studying and not blogging.
i think i should be reading my notes and not blogging.
i think i should be doing my assignment/project and not blogging.

but who cares! (at least for the next 5 mins...)
i am here to release myself from the texts and look at the blogging world.

AHHH...
the fresh touch of the keys,
the crisp sound of the typing
the pleasant smell of the disk-drive running
i taste the first fruits of my work...

pastor has just started on a whole new series on LEADERSHIP AND LIFE PRINCIPLES.
it is exciting to be a christian. because you learn it not the right way, but the GOD way.
isnt it totally cool???
and there are just so many things coming up for as to GROW GROW GROW.

there is zone camp, VBS, xmas big days, UPSIZE.

ok, as they always say, keep the BEST for the LAST.... *drum rolls*
LAST WEEKEND B ZONE ATTENDANCE WAS > > > >
101!! YES! MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE MORE!
WOO HOO! we are going to breakthrough even more. its not a once off event,
but its going to be going higher, higher and higher. (:

till then, back to my books. (:

loving life.

2007-10-19T02:46:00.000+08:00

i feel i'm quite a good student in uni.
i hand up my assignments and i go for most of my tutorials. (:
haha.

anyway, today we had a REALLY REALLY GOOD CG!
i personally felt that it was the best CG so far this year.
the presence of God was just so there, it was AMONG us.
you would really feel it. the feeling of this, was ......

we are the DREAM TEAM. YOU & ME & EVERYONE else.
the best has yet to be built.

"We knew that they were the most radical bunch of young people in the world.
Even if people didnt become christians, the experience they acquired just by
being with them haunted them. They could be going through hardships in school,
problems at home, fights with their friends - but whenever they were with people
from HOGC, it was like a cure that lifted their spirits, gave them joy. They will
go home and for the rest of their lives be able to tell their kids and the world
around them, "I've been to Heart of God church and I've seen these people for
myself!" They were the role models. I want to be just like them"

ARE YOU READY? (:

2007-10-15T12:29:00.001+08:00

last week, i went out with joanne, nic lee and ang wei jie.
haha. what a weird combi! oh well...

anyway, we talked ALOT ALOT and got to know each other
much much more. if you want to know the content,
GO ASK THEM!!!! hahahaha.

anyway, we left town at 2 plus. and we saw this injured bird!
SO POOR THING. But as we could not do anything much,
we left the little bird with a prayer that it would be healed.

ok, i need to go school now! or i will be late!

2007-10-14T03:08:00.001+08:00

i have changed my blogskin!!! PAINSTAKINGLY.... haha.
need some changes in life. (:

i know its not very me, but well, at least it is still quite me right?
check out the butterflies and glitter.... hahaha.

ok, i will blog more tmrw regarding something very interesting. (:
if you wanna know, read my blog another time. haha.

NIGHTS ALL!

2007-10-05T21:16:00.000+08:00

2007-10-03T01:44:00.001+08:00

OH! i thought this picture really shows a few things...

1) the joy of the Lord

2) how serving God should be like - HAPPY (:

3) the childlike faith for God

i think God really really speaks to me in pictures. haha.

2007-10-03T01:26:00.000+08:00

here is my another post! hahaha. it has been 1 week plus since i last blog.
i know im trying to be more faithful in blogging. hehe.

anyway, last week's service was FANTASTIC!!! (: im so glad that i came for
2 services. mid term break is over my encounters with God are never.
in fact, it is going to be even more and even more powerful.

I ORDERED THE SERMON CDS FOR THE WEEKEND TOO!
because i just want to keep it and listen to it again. i know i would want to do it.
hahahah. in fact, now im trying to collect every single sermon cd again.
it is always great to collect sermons so i can listen to pastors when im
travelling ot anything.

anyway, back to Pastor's sermon. this is the last stretch that i would be studying.
it would be the time where i need to grow in God the most. God challenged me during service to take these last 4 studying years to grow in Him. if i ever want to serve Him fully, i
must be FULL of Him on the inside then can i reflect Christ. in these few years, God is
going to work on my inside. It is the time where i must change and grow.

serving Him is the greatest honour.
it is not a job, it is an HONOUR.

i remember what Pastor Lia shared with me very recently...
it is not what you do but rather who you are.
you can be a TL for the rest of your life, but you can be the best and most
dependable one.
it is the inside. your essence.

i have been really learning alot from Pastors recently.
im even more in AWE of them.
they are the best to me.

2007-09-25T01:44:00.000+08:00

YEAH! EVERYONE is back from sweden. (:
i am SOOOOOOOO HAPPY!

anyway, i need to blog about my revelation from
the devotional because I am so excited about it!
i wanted to blog it since i got it, but i just didnt
have the motivation to do it, hence it is coming only...
now... hahaha

there was this part in the devtional that talks about
taking our delight in God (its from the further reading
section...) so I went to my bible and read that verse
after that there was this side note that lead me to
another verse which I went to look....

DELIGHTING IN GOD = SPENDING TIME WITH GOD
= HAVING THE JOY OF GOD
= HAVING STRENGTH
= TO BREAKTHROUGH

simple but powerful. that's why HE's my GOD. (:
delight in the times spent with God.
its the best moment no matter what you're feeling.

2007-09-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

because of 1 person, i will blog.
she is none other than NADINE LEONG.
i'm on the phone with her and she insist that if i dont blog
she would be disappointed and discouraged.
therefore, in order to make sure she feels great, i will blog
FOR HER. (hahahaha)

anyway, i really MISS MISS MISS Pastors ALOT. AHHHH!!
i cant wait for them to come back.
nothing beats having PASTORS preaching to us during weekends...

Ok, anyway, I had this VERY COOL revelation that I must blog about!
as mentioned, Pastor Lia preached to us about unlawful hunger
and so I was just seeking God about what to talk to B4.
to cut to the main part of the story, if we ar ehungry for God, then
out of our hearts, we cant help talking about God because it is on our hearts.
we dont need to worry about anything because if we are of God, our hearts
are hungering for more of God, then whatever flows out would be of God!
dont need to worry about team growth, problems, issues etc, because
if you are hungry and grow in God then you the things around you would grow.
because GOD MULTIPLIES. GOD LOVES FRUITFULNESS.

IT'S ALL LINKED! (:

so, grow in God. see how God works for you in you life.

2007-09-12T12:04:00.000+08:00

dear all,
sorry for my long disappearance from my blog
BUT i am back! so rejoice! (:

anyway, what has been on my heart ever since the weekend
what what Pastor Lia preached on unlawful hunger.
it was really impactful. sometimes, we all just go on in our lives,
coming to church becomes a routine we all have
but deep down on our inside, we seem to lack the THING that
brings us to church. the hunger that cries out for MORE OF GOD!
we are noy a hype and excitement church. we are:
A WORLD CLASS CHURCH WITH A 1st CLASS SPIRITUAL ATMOSPHERE

during sat service, Pastor prayed for all the leaders. *that's why, always be
in church for both days! DOUBLE BLESSINGS! hahah.*
while, I was on the floor getting ministered by God, I felt a expandsion of my heart
it felt like it was growing bigger in all angles. I though that perhaps
God was expanding my heart to love people more.
BUT I WAS WRONG. God spoke to me and said that He was expanding my heart
to LOVE HIM more.
OOOOHHHHHHH.....

LOVING JESUS. (: I am hungry for more of You!

2007-08-09T03:04:00.000+08:00

Before I am going to sleep, as promised I would blog about TING WEI.

haha. You all must be wondering why?

Today, is a day to be remembered....

TING WEI has grown to become someone who is secure and confident

about herself! *claps* which means that she has find an identity in Christ.

I am so proud of you! you rock!

anyway, we had a GREAT GREAT combine B2 B4 outing today.

haha. It was MADNESS... I know ALL of you want to know about it.

however, i feel my bed calling out to me at 3.20am therefore, I would

talk more about it SOON... (:

by the way, the picture above is to keep you wanting to find out more....

HAHAHA.

nights to all!

2007-07-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

Jesus INCREASE

I DECREASE

its no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me.

i dont live by resolutions. i live knowing who i live for, who i die for.

life would never be prefect. there would be days where you feel

like the earth is coming upon you. but there would be days

where you feel that heaven is right on earth.

when you feel the least, who do you turn too?

when you feel the happiest, who do you smile too?

for me, it is my Lord, Jesus Christ.

i surrender all

i will follow You

i surrender all

and give my life to You

i surrender all

and live my life for You

i surrender all, i surrender all.

Take my life, take my everything

Take my heart, take every part of me.

2007-07-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

i know i have not blog for a long time!
so here is my next post, for all the people. (:

nubian gents is coming this weekend!!!
i am excited about it.
i miss dancing... haha.
yes, i used to dance. in fact i started dancing since
kindergarten! i know, its quite unbelieveable
but oh well... that's sooo long ago la.

july is ending soon, august is starting.
im starting uni soon. i feel old.
thats why we need to reach out to the younger
generations. thats why we have zone f.
thats why we need to continue to reach down.

i was just thinking about this on the way home
and while i was eating dinner.
many times people say older people are better, wiser etc.
to some extent, it is true. i mean its like that have been
doing things longer so of course, they would.
but can you imagine the joy of seeing a 14 year old impacting lives?
doing the same things that a 18 year old can do?
wouldnt that be more exciting and more powerful?

Never despise humble beginnings.
Devil, watch us grow.
We're not able to be defeated.

we're ORDINARY but through Christ,
we're EXTRA - ORDINARY.

2007-07-09T02:09:00.000+08:00

i know you all must be wondering why am i blogging so much??

because i need to talk and there's no one to talk to me NOW!

AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok, i know it sounds funny, but when i woke up on sun morning,

i felt so horrible for not appearing in church.

i miss church. i REALLY do. i dont know how to describe that feeling.

so, i did something weird. i had my OWN service in the hotel room.

haha. since my mum was away in Shenzhen for some business thing,

i was alone. maybe its God's plan... HMMM...

anyway, here's what happen. laugh if you want too. haha.

but if i didnt have my own service, the post below would not have occur!

11am:

i woke up thinking it was 2pm. realised it was too early to call my brother

so decided to do my QT and have service. (:

11.30am

praise and worship -

worship leader: Myself.

worship team: laptop

songs: never stop, heart's cry

12pm

listen to Pst Lia's sermon

12.45pm

read my bible - chiong my BRP!!!

1pm

my service ended with a phone call.... it was my cousins.

i need to bath quickly!

haha. that's how i had my own service. (:

listening to Pst's voice was so WOOO HOO.

also, if you are wondering what i have been doing in HK,

i did this little collage to keep you guys updated.

im really tired now. nights all.

i'll be back soon! (:

2007-07-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

hi all! i know many of you are missing me
because I AM MISSING EVERYONE IN CHURCH! (:

as i was doing my QT on sun morning, God spoke to me.

i dont exactly know how to express myself hence i created this!

*refer to picture above.*

my God knows no geographical boundaries....

i wonder how's this week's attendance.

B zone = 100!!!!!!!!!!

anyway, like i was saying, as i was praying

i was so busy telling God this, God that.

then He just said, why do you pray for so many things?

Caleb says: "Give me this mountain."

but God says why dont you just say:

"thanks God for giving me this mountain."

im awe struck. i didnt know what to answer to God

so the best thing at that point of time, i just told God

ok God, thank you for giving me everything.

and i thought it was the end of a powerful conversation.

HOWEVER, God was not done with me.

He continued saying, I didn't ask you to thank me for everything.

if caleb asked me specifically for the mountain,

then what are you claiming? what are you thanking me for?

dont thank me for the sake of thanking me.

honestly, i really have not thought of it so I said...

God, let me think what am I exactly claiming and praying for.

up to now, i have not prayed yet because i just came back.

BUT im going swimming in the morning and at the same time,

its my TIME WITH MY GOD. (:

good bye 50s, hello 60s!

2007-07-03T14:39:00.000+08:00

GOOD BYE 50o. HELLO 600!

the good news is that we have breakthrough in our attendance!
YOUTH: 635.
B zone: 95.
B2: 36.
B4: 26

well done everyone who has worked hard to get the people back.
let's continue going on, sowing seeds and winning people for Jesus!

the leaders in B2 and B4, you all are the ones that make it happen.
you guys are the ones that win these people.
BUT its not over. hahaha.
We are going to get more of them! SALVATION IS HERE.

yeah man. (:

my 1st love

2007-07-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

weekend was fantastic.
Pastor Lia's sermon was really powerful.
Jesus - my FIRST LOVE
sometimes we can be so caught up in doing everything
that we dont spend enough time being with Him.
More than the memories or the excitement of ministry,
it is always about Him.
The relationship with Him.
The time spent in His presence.

It brought me back to this...
SHe's gone. She left me for another man.
She left me for someone who loved her more than I did,
gave her more than I could ever think of giving her,
and loved her in ways that I could never even think of,
much less imagine.
Right in front of me, while I stood there next to her,
she would tell Him how much she loved Him.
It never bothered her for people to know of her love for Him.
Openly and overtly she would tell anybody and
everybody about her "First Love."She cared for me, told me so,
but if He called she would leave me and go to Him for as long
as He wanted to be with her.
There were times in her last few months when she would
longingly call unto Him, wanting to be with Him,
all the time knowing that I understood.
Hers was a lifetime love affair with Him.
I could never compete with Him and didn't even try.
She loved Him passionately, and I was never jealous,
because I realized it helped her love me with passion.
At times, I would suddenly come upon her in her secret place
loving Him, and I would tip toe away so as not to interfere
with their relationship. He came first, and I gladly and
willingly accepted my role.
Her "First Love" really really came first in every sense of the word.
She would read His love letters to her, which He had written in a book,
and would quote passages to me.
I wrote her love letters, but mine seemed so anemic and
weak compared to His.
Only when I quoted some of His passages did they
seem to take on life and meaning.
There was never a day in her life when she did not meet with Him,
and there were times when she spent hours with Him,
telling Him about people's needs who wrote asking for help.
People she never met, probably never would meet,
but she knew He cared, so she would tell Him all about their needs
asking for His help.
She spent time, sharing the most intimate details of her life with Him,
things she never told me and never would.
She told me He understood her.
There were a few times she felt as though she had left her "First Love"
and would weep over the distance, and plead for a return
to that precious intimacy she had with Him.
It seemed she couldn't live without it. It never lasted long,
but even a day seemed like an eternity without her being with Him.
She told me last night, as I held her in my arms,
that she was going to leave me before Christmas.
I cried so hard she could hardly comfort me.
I learned to trust her completely, totally,
and when she said that, I knew she knew. It hurt.
But not as much as she was hurting,
from a disease that never knew a friend,
and facing death that never knew a stranger.
She assured me her "First Love" had conquered all her enemies.
He gave her His word that He would never leave nor forsake her,
and He kept His word.
Having loved her, He loved unto the end!
The name of her "First Love" is JESUS!
She was called the "Loveliest Lady in the Land," because she was a lady of love.
All who knew her loved her, and those she knew, she loved.
Without doubt, she was one of - if not the - greatest lover in the world.
- Late Dr. Ed Cole

Is Jesus your first love?

2007-06-30T00:24:00.000+08:00

today we had a great guys outing! haha.
ok, i mean mostly guys outing. we did lots of fun stuff.
we played ALI BOMB - i played it for the 1st time in my
life kudos to Ivan's brain!
seriously, i think that im quite powerful at hiding. no one can find me!
it was so funny, nic, ken and I were walking around and no one saw us.
we are just too powerful man...

and we played block catching!
wayne, bing rong, nicholas plus me were the catchers for the first round.
i seriously think that we are quite pro. hahah. we are GOOD man. (:
guys, we ROCK! hahaha.
my legs are really tired now.... i think it would cramp at night. haha.

in conclusion, its really fun. REALLY.
if you were not there, you would have felt like killing yourself.
i think i need a camera to capture such moments to put on my blog.
WOO HOO. (:

B2 B4 rocks. Everyone of you in this CG are THE BEST.
LOVE YOU GUYS. (: