so many things have happen, and the year of 2008 has since

passed already. it is quite amazing huh...

truly, 2008 & 2009 is like 1 year to us. haha. but i love it.

ok, but what i seriously like about 2009

is that i just bought a new study bible!

it is the coolest thing man.... now, it is kept in my cupboard

away from the eyes of my mum, to lazy to answer all her

endless questions.

but to me, it is exciting and like WOAH. (:

plus the fact that techman was having a discount,

it was the best time to buy a new bible to start of

reading the OT bible reading plan. hahaha.

as i begin to grow older (yes, im going to be 21 soon)

i realised that many things will be thrown at you

decisions that you never had to make, things that

you never seem to care about (or even detest)

all come towards you... it is like a rush and pumping

feeling that throws you off guard and for a moment, one

gets quite lost as to what to do and what to think.

but i guess that is all part of growing up.

the amazing thing is that we have our Pastors and leaders

to guide us and to help us...

but we would all come to a point, like Pastor How preached

that we need to have our own convictions, own revelation

and own calling about our ministry and what we do.

i understood what it means for me and for me to get my calling

i think i hit upon something really powerful over the past 1 month.

it was not a rush of emotions or feeling or whateverso.

it was a serious thought, a spiritual sightseeing etc...

suddenly, i felt i understood more why i am doing what i am doing.

i felt more serious about the things that i do because my perception

changed and the word 'generations' meant so differently to me now.

i think i have reached my own revelation of what it meant to me.

it is not a vision that Pst Lia and Pst How carries, it is a vision

and revelation that speaks into my life.

i think i am moving slowly into that.... but before the calling gets

into you, i guess God would always wanna do a work in your life

and make you all ready for the calling that He has called you for. (:

so smile, know that God is good.

i only know that this season, i want to do 2 things

1) study and do well in school

2) grow the zone BIG!